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Djinn and are copyright (c) 2003 by Djinn. This story is Rated PG-13.
Stardust
by Djinn
Her uniform is torn at the
arm, the fabric soaked with her blood. Pike runs his hand down the soft golden
velour and stops at the scorch marks where the Vegan's weapon raked across her
chest.
She comes out from her
bathroom. All better. All fixed up except a few more scars. A new uniform on,
clean, regulation. The odd triangular collar, still too stiff, sticks out in a
funny way.
"Here, let me," he
says and reaches in to fix it. His hands brush her neck as he works at the
collar. He wonders, not for the first time, why her uniform doesn't have the
easy knit collar of his own.
"Sir. Please."
He feels her tremble under
his touch. When did he move his hands to her neck? He was fixing her collar, wasn't
he? Her skin is soft and pale as ivory. He can see her veins, light blue under
her delicate skin. He can feel her pulse. Her pulse so strong, so alive.
"What's wrong, Number
One?"
Her eyes seem bluer than
normal. And her hair blacker, shinier. He breathes deeply, moves his hands
under her hair, letting it brush over his skin like the finest Orion silk.
"I have a name." Her
tone is hurt. It matches the look he's seen in her eyes when he's made comments
about having women on the bridge, as if she were anything but. He's had to
pretend that she was anything but. Had to pretend that he was immune to her
lithe build, her ample breasts, and wonderfully angular face. Had to act as if he
was unmoved by raven hair and sapphire eyes.
She's smarter than he is, nearly
taller than he is. And recently, she proved she was braver than he is.
When she nearly died.
"Yes, you have a
name." He has never used it. Never called her anything but Lieutenant or
Number One. Sometimes he just calls her Helm. As if she was a part of the ship.
He loves her like she was
part of the ship.
He's never used her name. But
he's called her a million more names in his mind. He holds up her uniform and
touches the scorch mark. "A little to the left..."
"Yes." Her voice
shakes. He doesn't know if it's because she's upset at how close death came. Or
if she trembles because he's moved closer to her, very close.
"Lorelei." He
strokes her hair. It falls like a black river under his hand. He tries out
another of the names he has given her. "Morgan."
She breathes out, the sound
loud and husky, and he's immediately drawn to her mouth.
"Esmeralda."
She smiles at that. "I'm
hardly a gypsy."
"You're exotic. You're
beautiful."
She blushes. Her pale skin is
suffused with warmth, with life. With her blood. Blood that ran out onto the
Vegan dirt. Blood he didn't think he'd be able to
stop. He touches the sleeve of her uniform again.
"It was just a flesh
wound." She smiles.
"Diana." He smiles,
too. She is a warrior. And an ice maiden. Impenetrable. And impossible to
resist.
She shakes her head.
She's wise. Intelligent
beyond reason, clever and quick with common sense to spare. He depends on her. "Athena."
"Please." She
blushes again. Seems to tremble more, but that may be because he's dropped the
shirt and has moved his hands to her cheeks, is stroking them. They're soft. So
soft.
"Juliet." Soft what
light... Her eyes reflect the lights of her quarters back to him. So blue, so
wise. So troubled as he pulls her closer.
He's never kissed her. Has
been afraid to wake her up with his kiss. "Snow White."
"I have a name."
He nods. "And I have
named you a million things since we met."
"Sir—"
He puts his fingers on her
lips and is mesmerized by how soft they are. "My name is Chris."
"Sir—"
He leans in and kisses her. Their
lips barely touch. She moans. Or maybe it was him.
"I have a name," he
says as he pulls away. He stares at her. Knows he should turn now. Should turn
and walk out.
There are rules. Rules and
regulations she could quote to him word for word. If he wanted her to. He doesn't.
He leans in and kisses her
again. This time they touch less tentatively, and he lets his hands run over
her uniform. It is snug and he follows it around her body, lets his fingers run
down the long fastener, then up. He has always wanted to do this. Has stared at
her back for days-weeks-months-years and longed to do this.
She trembles. "Chris."
"Yes. Chris." He
doesn't move, just holds her until she stops trembling. "I have loved you
for a million years..."
"That's an
exaggeration." She pulls away, strokes his cheek, and smiles. The sad,
half-smile she so often wears. But her eyes are softer than he's ever seen
them.
"Possibly." He
laughs as he pulls her close and kisses her freely, with no caution.
She meets him more than
halfway.
"Through a million
uniforms, then." He buries his face in her hair.
Yes—it smells like
strawberries. He always thought it would. "Through a million
fantasies." He points to her ruined uniform. "Through a million
heartbeats."
She swallows hard.
"I almost lost you,
Gwen."
She closes her eyes, as if
finally hearing him say her name is painful, or just too much to be borne.
"Gwen," he says
again, as he forces his eyes away from her wrecked uniform. "My
Gwen."
"The regs—"
He kisses her.
"The regs—"
He kisses her again. "The
regs, my Gwen, can go to hell."
She takes a deep breath and
smiles, then she kisses him.
He reaches for the fastener
at the back of her uniform. It's new, sticks. He fights with it and feels like
a teenager again.
He sighs in frustration, but
she actually giggles, a sound so rare that he begins to laugh, too.
"I love you." She
says it softly. If he were not holding her close, he would have missed it.
"Say that again."
She does.
The fastener finally moves, and
he pulls it open and removes her uniform top. She is as beautiful as he has
ever dreamed. "Aphrodite." He smiles at her.
She shakes her head again but
lets him push her down onto her bed. Her skin is warm and she slips under him. Her
bed is too small for them, but he doesn't care.
She pulls his uniform off. They're
both equal now. No way to tell who's higher ranking. Or who's male and who's
female. He laughs at that whimsy. All he has to do is look at her to know she's
female. All she has to do is move a few inches over to know that he's male. Very
male.
"I should nearly die
more often," she whispers.
"If you did that on
purpose, I'll bring you up on charges."
She kisses him.
"After we're done,"
he says with a laugh.
She laughs, too. A throaty
sound he could never have imagined. Its echoes run through his body; no part of
him is immune.
He takes off the rest of her
uniform then lets her take off his. They'll steal this time. They'll steal it
and hoard every day they're given from this moment on. "Tomorrow, we'll
try my quarters."
He sees her eyes widen. Did
she really think this would only happen once? That he would only want her once?
She looks about to quote a
regulation so he kisses her until she gives up, until she can only touch and
stroke and kiss and make the most amazing sounds he's ever heard.
"Don't throw the uniform
away, Gwen."
She smiles. "A
memento?"
He nods. "Of the day I
started living."
"Of the day we both
did."
He knows they're being
reckless. But life is too short, too dangerous in space, to wait any longer. He's
ignored her for as long as he can. The next time she might not come back. Or he
might not. He doesn't want their last words to be, "If only."
And now, they'll never have
to be.
FIN