DISCLAIMER: The Star Trek characters are the property of Paramount Studios, Inc and Viacom. The story contents are the creation and property of Djinn and are copyright (c) 2001 by Djinn. This story is Rated PG.
Too Close to See
By Djinn
I watch them. I see what's going on. But they don't see it. I'm not sure anyone else sees it either. Well, let me rephrase that. They see it, they just don't see it the same
way that I do. But I guess that's
natural. I probably have a unique view
because I tend to look at just about any interaction in terms of language. That's my job, after all. And my passion.
So I watch them. Two people trying to learn how to
communicate. How to understand each
other. They represent two cultures—two
cultures that at their best barely communicate.
Add in the gender issues and you have a major problem. Lots of tension. And that's what the rest of the crew
sees. Two people who don't get along but
who have to try anyway.
But I see it
differently. I'm fascinated by the two
of them but can't remember how that fascination started. Maybe it was because T'Pol
seemed so hostile to me, and Trip went out of his way to be welcoming. Maybe I was taking his side when I listened
to them fight (or discuss, T'Pol would never
fight. Well, she'd never admit to
fighting.) Anyway, however I became
fascinated, I've watched them since the beginning. Watched their relationship, their
communication.
It started with
annoyance. The natural bristling that's
the reaction when two languages come together with no understanding. There's no common ground; there's no
sympathy. So the interactions are
difficult, full of discord and fraught with misspoken words and awkward
sentence structure. There's progress
made but it's made through the disconnects, the misunderstandings. The participants don't see the strides that
are being made because the gulf between them is just so wide.
Trip and T'Pol
were like this. They seemed to bristle
every time they were around each other.
Trip would insult her and she'd find some less emotional way to respond
in kind. Every interaction was a
negotiation at best, a battle at worst.
It probably didn't have to be, if one of them had been willing to back
down, but of course neither one of them would give ground.
They'd probably die before
admitting it, but they're so alike.
Confident, proud, and stubborn to a fault. But loyal and kind too. And passionate. Oh, I know anyone that heard me describe the
Sub-Commander as passionate would laugh out loud, but she is. If they would just really look, they would
observe the quiet intensity she brings to everything she does. And what is passion if not intensity? Sure, it's not loud or obvious, but it's
there. It colors every action she
takes. And it seems to be especially
present when she interacts with Commander Tucker.
I was jealous for a
while. There, I said it. I was jealous. I envied the look of determination he gets
when he's trying to win an argument with her.
I resented the way his eyes light up with mischief and pleasure when he
sees her. She definitely causes a
reaction in him. Not that he doesn't
care for me, I know he does. We're
friends and I like that. But I guess,
maybe at first, I wanted something more.
But I'm ok with it now. I mean, they're just so interesting to
watch. They've made great progress. I see them together, and they don't realize
that they're finally communicating.
There's a naturalness between them when they talk—or more probably argue—that's
lacking in T'Pol's interactions with the rest of
us. They have a lexicon of shared terms—shared
turf, if you will. An established list
of things they don't agree on and things that they do. And they're expanding that list all the time,
or at least trying to. I saw Trip trying
to get T'Pol to appreciate pecan pie. I know he tried plomeek
soup at her urging. I don't think
they'll be ordering those dishes again, but at least they're trying. Their
shared world is getting bigger.
On the away mission to the Akaali homeworld, I was
astonished at the unspoken communication that went on between them. The abbreviated language that meant "Your
ears are showing through your wig" or "Someone's coming, put that
tricorder away." In every case, all
he said was, "T'Pol." In every case, it meant something different
and she knew immediately what that was.
I spent a good portion of the mission with her and tried the same
thing. She did not respond to me that
way. In fact, I had to spell out several
rather obvious things. She and I do not
yet have a large enough shared world for us to talk that way. I have hopes that someday we might. In the meantime, I'll watch their world grow.
I don't think they're even
aware of what's being built between them.
But they seem to enjoy it. Not
that they're aware of that either. Or
maybe they are. Maybe that's why they've
started to challenge each other again like they did at the beginning of our
mission. The bridge crew is still
talking about the argument they had when T'Pol gave
the order to prepare to leave orbit after the Mallurian
told us the captain was dead. Trip
jumped on T'Pol for her order, clearly not understanding
what she was really saying. I know from
what Reed said later that Trip was bordering on insubordination. His actions shook some people up. But I guess I'm still green enough to not
automatically see things in military black or white, right or wrong. Or maybe it was just that I wasn't that
surprised. Because that's how learning
language is. You learn in levels. First you have the basic words and begin to
see the rhythms of the language. You
think you're making great strides picking your way through a conversation with
a native, until, that is, you hear that person talking to another native
speaker. Then you realize that you
communicate like a toddler compared to them.
It's frustrating, can cause tension.
That's what going on with
Trip and T'Pol.
They've laid the foundation, now they're moving on to the next
level. But they have so far to go and
they know it—on an unconscious level, at least.
That's why they're picking at each other. Because they're frustrated at how little they
can really say to each other. And both
of them are masters of using language as a tool, even as a weapon. Trip usually employs his humor to ease a
situation, but I've seen him use it cause trouble. T'Pol utilizes her
logic to convince as well as to irritate.
It is normal for them to reach for language first. But with each other they can't do this and
they hate it. They don't like being
inarticulate. It leaves them both off
balance. So they strike out. But they'll make progress. I already see them doing it. Cataloguing each instance that they
misread. Trying to learn from their
mistakes. Adding to their personal
lexicons. Increasing their common
ground.
But they're too close to see
it. I think it will be the kind of thing
that isn't apparent until it hits them both over the head and shouts "Hey,
unbearable attraction here!" I can
see them both when this happens. Trip
with all his southern charm and shyness saying, "What the...?" And T'Pol, raising
an eyebrow and protesting that "This is not logical." I could be wrong, but I don't think so. I've always been successful spotting those
students that would go on to master a language.
If Trip and T'Pol were in my class, I'd say it's
only a matter of time before they achieve total fluency. I hope I'm around to watch.
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