DISCLAIMER: The Buffy the Vampire Slayer/Angel characters are the property of Mutant Enemy, Joss Whedon, Lazy Dave, Kuzui, Dark Horse, and Fox Studios. The story contents are the creation and property of Djinn and are copyright (c) 2008 by Djinn. This story is Rated PG-13.
Someone Else's Hell
by Djinn
Buffy stood near the rear
door of the truck and listened to the sound from inside--a deep growling, like
an animal.
Like a hungry vampire.
"Little sister's getting
kind of antsy," Faith said as she unlocked the door then shoved it up in
one move.
"Oh, sure, why bother
getting a feel for how she's doing or anything before we throw open the door? Nice to see you haven't changed." Buffy scrambled into the truck, following
Faith to see the girl Andrew had sent them.
The latest of the new slayers. Dana.
A young woman who made Faith look well
adjusted.
Dana was launching herself at
them--she'd had to be sedated for the ride from California with animal tranqs, but she'd woken up now. It had taken several slayers to subdue her, rather
forcefully, if the bruises all over Dana were any indication. Although some of them looked like they'd been
caused by her throwing herself against the bars of the cage.
Faith had sent the slayers
who had driven the truck cross country straight out to patrol, to work off the
nervous energy and boredom.
"Don't take your eyes
off her," one of the slayers had said as she'd handed Faith the keys to
the cage.
Andrew had been the one to
put her in it. Buffy hadn't been happy
with him for caging a fellow slayer; now, she wondered why he hadn't included
chains in the bargain.
Dana didn't look human.
"Jeeee-sus,"
Faith said softly as she backed away from the cage. "Someone is seriously off her
meds."
"Yellow makes you
weak," Dana said, then she looked up at Faith,
her eyes going cold. "You're not
weak."
"Dana." Buffy kept her voice low. "It's okay now. Everything's okay." She moved slowly, was careful to keep her
hands in plain sight. "I'm
Buffy. You're safe now."
"Not safe. It hurts.
I hurt them back." Dana smiled, a slow, very oogly
smile. "It felt good."
"She's making nuthouse
sense, B." Faith jumped out of the
truck. "I'm gonna
see how Robin's coming with those tranqs."
"No more." Dana huddled in the corner, seeming more like
a scared little girl than a psycho-killer slayer. "No more shots."
"We're not going to hurt
you." But Buffy knew they had to
sedate her just to get her out of the cage.
She moved closer to the bars.
"It's okay."
Dana leapt, hitting the side of the cage hard, scrabbling for a grip on
Buffy. "Have to get out. Head and heart, that's how you do it."
Her nails raked Buffy's arm,
but then she went limp, and Buffy turned to see Robin holding the tranq gun.
"You okay?" he
asked.
"Been
better. This is so not going to be fun." Her arm stung; Dana's nails had bit
deep. "Let's get her out of
here."
"Uh, Buffy, what exactly
is our long term plan?" Faith climbed
back up into the truck, opened the cage, and hefted Dana up, looping an arm
over her shoulder.
Buffy took the other
side. "We see where this
goes."
"See where this
goes? Cleveland's on a
Hellmouth, B.
Have you really thought this thing through?" Faith let Robin take Dana while she jumped
down. "Girl's going to get in the
way of the war we're fighting. Or worse,
she may join in if she gets loose. And
who knows what team she'll pick."
"She's a slayer. She'll pick ours."
Faith gave her a look that
spoke volumes--of days past, when she hadn't chosen Buffy's way.
"She's just
confused."
"Right. And I was just
acting out." Faith shook her head,
but didn't say anything more as they hauled Dana to the basement of the
warehouse Faith was using as a temporary base and into the cell they'd
reinforced while they waited for the truck to arrive.
Staring down at her, Buffy
could almost feel Dana's pain. "I'm going to stay here for a while."
"First watch is on
you? Fine by me." Faith tipped an imaginary hat and left Buffy
alone with Dana.
"You're going to be okay,
Dana. I promise you that." It was a stupid promise, and Buffy meant
every word.
Dana rolled over, into a
fetal position, looking almost peaceful.
She was mumbling in what sounded like Chinese.
Buffy leaned against the wall
and waited.
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"It stopped." Dana sat up and stared at Buffy. "You jumped. Fell, down and down. It stopped."
Buffy swallowed and
nodded. Andrew had warned her that Dana appeared
to be able to tap into other slayer's lives--and deaths.
Dana seemed focused somewhere
deep inside herself. She hugged her arms
tight around her body, rocking slightly.
"It never stops."
Buffy moved closer, slowing
when Dana seemed ready to spring.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry for
everything that happened to you."
Even if Dana's early trauma had been nothing to do with slayers, she'd
never have been activated but for the spell Buffy has asked Willow to do. So Buffy was responsible for some of this.
Dana cocked her head,
watching Buffy like a dog would.
"I'm really sorry."
"You said that,
B." Faith stood in the door, had
come down the stairs so quietly that Buffy hadn't heard her. "Guilty much?"
"Shouldn't I be?"
Faith shrugged and slid down
the wall into a sitting position.
"Way I see it, we saved the
world...again. How many people on the
plus side would that be? Oh yeah, all of
them. So, one girl--who, by the way, was
already crazy--goes a little nuttier?
Scales are still on our side, girlfriend."
"You tried this argument
after you killed the deputy mayor."
"Accidentally
killed. And yeah, I did. And yeah, I still believe it; only in this
case, we didn't kill her. We just made
her crazier."
"And then she killed
people."
"She's a slayer, B. And, bonus, a real looney toons kind of gal. Crazy comes with a hacksaw--what do you
think? Kind of a
dangerous combo, maybe?"
Dana looked over at Faith. She seemed
surprisingly lucid. "You fell,
too. Slept a long
time."
"Yep, toots, I sure
did." Faith stretched her legs out,
looking like she was only concerned with getting comfortable. "You thinking of
falling, Dana?"
"Faith!"
"What? She's the one fixated on the
topic."
"I could fall. I could never wake up." Dana clenched her fists,
beat them over and over on the concrete floor.
"Head and heart for them. But we go smoosh."
"Actually, it takes a
lot to make us go smoosh."
"Faith, you are so not
helping."
"What kind of help are
you looking to give her? Because from
where I'm sitting, neither of us is qualified to do more than keep an eye on
her. And I have about a gazillion other
things to do, not the least of which is minding the hometown badness."
"So go mind it. And leave us alone."
"You're getting
tired."
"I'm fine."
Faith pushed herself up. "You're not fine. And hey, while we're on the subject of who's fine and who's not, I'm betting Angel's not doing so
great. It ever occur
to you what your lack of faith would do to him?"
"It ever occur to him what heading up an evil law firm would do to my
ability to trust him?"
"That's what I've always
loved about you, B. You're so quick to
forgive and forget." Faith hurried
up the stairs, nowhere near as silent as she'd been on the way down.
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Buffy fought to keep
awake. Dana was watching her, eyes slitted as if she too was having trouble staying upright.
"I cut off his
arms. But you cut out his heart. The blond one. The bad one."
Spike. Buffy was
still trying to figure out how Spike could be alive, much less why he was
working with Angel. At
the evil law firm.
Both of them had sold their
souls to Wolfram & Hart? It didn't
make sense.
"I didn't cut out his
heart. I broke it."
"Hurt him. I hurt him, too. We're the same."
"No, Dana. We're not the same." Only--she remembered the asylum that she'd
thought she'd been locked in, back when she was fighting Warren and Jonathan
and Andrew. Back when she was so tired
and it was almost comforting to think her life was a lunatic's nightmare
instead of reality.
But that wasn't reality. It had only been the poison. "I'm fine."
"I want to see how it
ends," Dana said, throwing her head back and giving a laugh that was half
growl, the same way Spike had at the end, when the amulet had finally done its
thing.
"I thought I knew how it
ended." Spike was supposed to be
dead. Angel was supposed to be
good. Slayers were supposed to protect
people, not kill them. Nothing was how
she imagined.
Dana crept across the floor,
to the bars. "Let me out."
"No."
"Can't
take it. I lived in a cage. In a room with no windows, with bars on the
door and they shot me full of drugs.
Just like the man did. Just like you did."
Dana began to rock, English giving way to what sounded like French, then
she began muttering in one language after another.
"Well, I see she's doing
so much better. Oh wait, she isn't."
Robin stepped into the room.
"What the hell are we going to do with her?"
"Are you two rappelling
down here?" Or was she just so
tired she couldn't hear the stairs creaking under his weight?
Robin stepped toward the
cage. He had a bottle of water. "Get away from the bars, Dana."
"It's okay, baby. I'll
be home soon."
He stopped, seemed to freeze.
"She's doing Nikki,
isn't she?"
"Yeah. Crappy
impression though." Robin tossed
the water into the cage. "She'll
drink when she's thirsty."
"What about food?"
"Workin' on that." Robin pulled Buffy up, keeping
clear of the cage. "Go upstairs and
sleep. That's an order."
"You're not the boss of
me anymore."
"Maybe
not. But Faith is the boss here. And she says it's time for me to relieve
you."
"You're taking orders
from Faith now?"
He grinned. "When I feel like it. And I feel like it now." He turned her toward the stairs. "Up, one foot in front
of the other."
Buffy glanced at Dana, who
stared back expressionlessly. "Yeah. I could
use some sleep."
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Faith was waiting for her at
the top of the stairs. "Cot's this
way." She reached into the pocket
of her jacket, handed Buffy a cell phone.
"Call him. His number's
programmed in."
Buffy tried to give it back.
"B,
quit being an asshole and call him."
Faith pointed to a screened off area in the warehouse. "Sleep there. Call first."
Angel was the first entry in
the address book. Buffy's finger hovered
over the send key, then
she put the phone down and rolled onto the cot, not bothering to pull off her boots.
Sleep came quickly, but it
didn't touch her gently. She woke
thrashing from the last in a series of nightmares. This one about the night Dawn had tried to
bring their mother back--only this time Dawn didn't tear up the photo, and
Buffy let a thing that looked like her mom into the house. Dawn didn't survive. Buffy woke to the sound of her own screams as
in her dream, her mother tried to tear her throat out.
The screaming went on, and
Buffy realized it was Dana. She heard
Faith yelling, couldn't hear anything from Robin. She sprinted across the warehouse, taking the
stairs three at a time and nearly barreled into Faith as she
ran into the room where Dana was locked up.
Dana had Robin by the throat,
a plate of food spilled at his feet. It
looked like any second she might twist and Robin's neck would snap, even though
he was holding on to her hands as if he could stop her from killing him.
Everything seemed to change
to slow motion: Faith pulling a knife from somewhere, the snap of the blade as
she released it, as it flew, deadly true, past Robin's head, into Dana's eye--into
Dana's poor tangled brain.
Dana jerked back and let go
of Robin as she yanked the dagger out of her eye. Blood spurted from the ruined socket as she
tried to stab Robin with the knife, but he launched himself away from the cage,
falling hard and scrambling for the door and Faith.
Dana stood, studying the
knife with her one eye. Then she smiled,
and it was a wrenching expression, a happiness born of violence and horror. "Falling makes it better," she
said, as she pushed the knife into her chest and fell forward.
Buffy could hear the blade as
it cut into her, moved but felt Faith grab her.
"She's not dead yet,
B."
"We have to help
her."
"No. She's finished. Just let her bleed. It's what she wanted. It's what she needs." Helping Robin up, Faith touched his neck
where bruises were already springing up.
"You okay?"
"Yeah. Nice
shot."
Buffy knelt, then slid down to lie on the cold cement, her cheek on the
floor, a mirror image to how Dana lay.
"Missed
the heart. This way's slower. But close enough." Dana reached out, her hand stretching across
the growing pool of blood. "No more
pain. Falling makes it stop."
Buffy reached into the cage,
past the bars, and touched Dana's hand.
"No. No, it really
doesn't."
But Dana's smile changed, and
she turned her hand so her fingers could touch Buffy's. "It will. It has to." And in that moment, she almost sounded sane.
They lay like that while Dana
bled and the light went slowly out of her eyes.
They lay like that long past the time when it was needed. Faith and Robin went upstairs, and Buffy
didn't move.
When she finally got up and
walked to the stairs, she saw the cell phone waiting for her on the bottom
step. Sitting, she found Angel's entry,
hit send.
It only rang a few times,
then "Hello? Faith?"
"It's me."
There was silence. She probably deserved that. But...no. She didn't.
Angel wasn't supposed to work in that place, with those people. He wasn't supposed to--
"You couldn't have saved
her," she whispered into the stillness.
"I couldn't save her."
"She's dead?" Angel's voice was cold.
"Yes."
"Spike will be
relieved."
It was odd. Angel caring more about
Spike's feelings than hers. Or his own.
"I'm sure he will
be." It wasn't the right thing to
say. She should say she was sorry for
not trusting him.
She should say she still
loved him.
She should say anything, not
just hang on the line waiting for him to say more.
"I have things to do,"
he finally said. "And
we're...finished. Right? No trust anymore?"
Andrew had told him
that. She'd told Andrew to tell him
that. But they weren't finished. They'd never be finished. He was her soul mate. Wasn't he?
"I have to
go." Her soul mate hung up on
her. The cell helpfully telling her that
the call had ended in case the extreme lack of words during the minute more she
hung on didn't clue her in.
Pushing herself to her feet,
Buffy saw Faith waiting for her at the top of the stairs. She tossed her the cell phone, then turned
and headed back to sit with Dana.
"She's dead,
Buffy."
"And we did all we
could, right?"
"We did." Faith sounded tired--sick to death of Buffy
and this poor, doomed slayer she'd brought her.
That was what a Hellmouth could do to a girl.
Make her strong. Make her hard.
And falling would never make
it better.
FIN