DISCLAIMER: The Buffy the Vampire Slayer/Angel characters are the property of Mutant Enemy, Joss Whedon, Lazy Dave, Kuzui, Dark Horse, and Fox Studios. The story contents are the creation and property of Djinn and are copyright (c) 2008 by Djinn. This story is Rated PG-13.
Someone Else's Hell
by Djinn
Buffy stood near the rear
door of the truck and listened to the sound from inside—a deep growling, like
an animal.
Like a hungry vampire.
"Little sister's getting
kind of antsy," Faith said as she unlocked the door then shoved it up in
one move.
"Oh, sure, why bother
getting a feel for how she's doing or anything before we throw open the door? Nice
to see you haven't changed." Buffy scrambled into the truck, following
Faith to see the girl Andrew had sent them.
The latest of the new
slayers. Dana. A young woman who made Faith look well adjusted.
Dana was launching herself at
them—she'd had to be sedated for the ride from California with animal tranqs, but she'd woken up now. It had taken several
slayers to subdue her, rather forcefully, if the bruises all over Dana were any
indication. Although some of them looked like they'd been caused by her
throwing herself against the bars of the cage.
Faith had sent the slayers
who'd driven the truck cross country out to patrol, to work off the nervous
energy and boredom.
"Don't take your eyes
off her," one of the slayers had said as she'd handed Faith the keys to
the cage.
Andrew had been the one to
put her in it. Buffy hadn't been happy with him for caging a fellow slayer;
now, she wondered why he hadn't included chains in the bargain.
Dana didn't look human.
"Jeeee-sus,"
Faith said softly as she backed away from the cage. "Someone is seriously
off her meds."
"Yellow makes you
weak," Dana said, then she looked up at Faith, her eyes going cold. "You're
not weak."
"Dana." Buffy kept
her voice low. "It's okay now. Everything's okay." She moved slowly,
was careful to keep her hands in plain sight. "I'm Buffy. You're safe
now."
"Not safe. It hurts. I
hurt them back." Dana smiled, a slow, very oogly
smile. "It felt good."
"She's making nuthouse
sense, B." Faith jumped out of the truck. "I'm gonna
see how Robin's coming with those tranqs."
"No more." Dana
huddled in the corner, seeming more like a scared little girl than a
psycho-killer slayer. "No more shots."
"We're not going to hurt
you." But Buffy knew they had to sedate her just to get her out of the
cage. She moved closer to the bars. "It's okay."
Dana leapt, hitting the side
of the cage hard, scrabbling for a grip on Buffy. "Have to get out. Head
and heart, that's how you do it."
Her nails raked Buffy's arm,
but then she went limp, and Buffy turned to see Robin holding the tranq gun.
"You
okay?" he asked.
"Been better. This is so
not going to be fun." Her arm stung; Dana's nails had bit deep. "Let's
get her out of here."
"Uh, Buffy, what exactly
is our long-term plan?" Faith climbed back up into the truck, opened the
cage, and hefted Dana up, looping an arm over her shoulder.
Buffy took the other side. "We
see where this goes."
"See where this goes? Cleveland's
on a Hellmouth, B. Have you really thought this thing through?" Faith let
Robin take Dana while she jumped down. "Girl's going to get in the way of
the war we're fighting. Or worse, she may join in if she gets loose. And who
knows what team she'll pick."
"She's a slayer. She'll
pick ours."
Faith gave her a look that
spoke volumes—of days past, when she hadn't chosen Buffy's way.
"She's just
confused."
"Right. And I was just
acting out." Faith shook her head, but didn't say anything more as they
hauled Dana to the basement of the warehouse Faith was using as a temporary
base and into the cell they'd reinforced while they waited for the truck to
arrive.
Staring down at her, Buffy
could almost feel Dana's pain. "I'm going to stay here for a while."
"First watch is on you? Fine
by me." Faith tipped an imaginary hat and left Buffy alone with Dana.
"You're going to be
okay, Dana. I promise you that." It was a stupid promise, but Buffy meant
every word.
Dana rolled over, into a
fetal position, looking almost peaceful. She was mumbling in what sounded like
Chinese.
Buffy leaned against the wall
and waited.
##
"It stopped." Dana
sat up and stared at Buffy. "You jumped. Fell, down and down. It
stopped."
Buffy swallowed and nodded. Andrew
had warned her that Dana appeared to be able to tap into other slayer's lives—and
deaths.
Dana seemed focused somewhere
deep inside herself. She hugged her arms tight around her body, rocking
slightly. "It never stops."
Buffy moved closer, slowing
when Dana seemed ready to spring. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything
that happened to you." Even if Dana's early trauma had been nothing to do
with slayers, she'd never have been activated but for the spell Buffy had asked
Willow to do. So Buffy was responsible for some of this.
Dana cocked her head,
watching Buffy like a dog would.
"I'm really sorry."
"You said that, B."
Faith stood in the door, had come down the stairs so quietly that Buffy hadn't
heard her. "Guilty much?"
"Shouldn't I be?"
Faith shrugged and slid down
the wall into a sitting position. "Way I see it,
we saved the world...again. How many people on the plus side would that be? Oh
yeah, all of them. So, one girl—who, by the way, was already crazy—goes a
little nuttier? Scales are still on our side, girlfriend."
"You tried this argument
after you killed the deputy mayor."
"Accidentally killed. And
yeah, I did. And yeah, I still believe it; only in this case, we didn't kill
her. We just made her crazier."
"And then she killed
people."
"She's a slayer, B. And,
bonus, a real looney toons kind of gal. Crazy comes with a hacksaw—what do you
think? Kind of a dangerous combo, maybe?"
Dana looked over at Faith. She
seemed surprisingly lucid. "You fell, too. Slept a long time."
"Yep, toots, I sure
did." Faith stretched her legs out, looking like she was only concerned
with getting comfortable. "You thinking of falling, Dana?"
"Faith!"
"What? She's the one
fixated on the topic."
"I could fall. I could
never wake up." Dana clenched her fists, beat them over and over on the
concrete floor. "Head and heart for them. But we go smoosh."
"Actually, it takes a
lot to make us go smoosh."
"Faith, you are so not
helping."
"What kind of help are
you looking to give her? Because from where I'm sitting, neither of us is
qualified to do more than keep an eye on her. And I have about a gazillion
other things to do, not the least of which is minding the hometown
badness."
"So go mind it. And
leave us alone."
"You're getting
tired."
"I'm fine."
Faith pushed herself up. "You're
not fine. And hey, while we're on the subject of who's fine and who's not, I'm
betting Angel's not doing so great. It ever occur to
you what your lack of faith would do to him?"
"It ever occur to him what heading up an evil law firm would do to my
ability to trust him?"
"That's what I've always
loved about you, B. You're so quick to forgive and forget." Faith hurried
up the stairs, nowhere near as silent as she'd been on the way down.
##
Buffy fought to keep awake. Dana
was watching her, eyes slitted as if she too was having trouble staying
upright.
"I cut off his arms. But
you cut out his heart. The blond one. The bad one."
Spike. Buffy was still trying
to figure out how Spike could be alive, much less why he was working with
Angel. At the evil law firm.
Both of them had sold their
souls to Wolfram & Hart? It didn't make sense.
"I didn't cut out his
heart. I broke it."
"Hurt him. I hurt him,
too. We're the same."
"No, Dana. We're not the
same." Only—she remembered the asylum that she'd thought she'd been locked
in, back when she was fighting Warren and Jonathan and Andrew. Back when she
was so tired and it was almost comforting to think her life was a lunatic's
nightmare instead of reality.
But that wasn't reality. It had
only been the poison. "I'm fine."
"I want to see how it
ends," Dana said, throwing her head back and giving a laugh that was half
growl, the same way Spike had at the end, when the amulet had finally done its
thing.
"I thought I knew how it
ended." Spike was supposed to be dead. Angel was supposed to be good. Slayers
were supposed to protect people, not kill them. Nothing was how she imagined.
Dana crept across the floor,
to the bars. "Let me out."
"No."
"Can't take it. I lived
in a cage. In a room with no windows, with bars on the door and they shot me
full of drugs. Just like the man did. Just like you did." Dana began to
rock, English giving way to what sounded like French, then she began muttering
in one language after another.
"Well, I see she's doing
so much better. Oh wait, she isn't." Robin stepped into the room. "What
the hell are we going to do with her?"
"Are you two rappelling
down here?" Or was she just so tired she couldn't hear the stairs creaking
under his weight?
Robin stepped toward the
cage. He had a bottle of water. "Get away from the bars, Dana."
"It's okay, baby. I'll
be home soon."
He stopped, seemed to freeze.
"She's doing Nikki,
isn't she?"
"Yeah. Crappy impression
though." Robin tossed the water into the cage. "She'll drink when
she's thirsty."
"What about food?"
"Workin'
on that." Robin pulled Buffy up, keeping clear of the cage. "Go
upstairs and sleep. That's an order."
"You're not the boss of
me anymore."
"Maybe not. But Faith is
the boss here. And she says it's time for me to relieve you."
"You're taking orders
from Faith now?"
He grinned. "When I feel
like it. And I feel like it now." He turned her toward the stairs. "Up,
one foot in front of the other."
Buffy glanced at Dana, who
stared back expressionlessly. "Yeah. I could use some sleep."
##
Faith was waiting for her at
the top of the stairs. "Cot's this way." She reached into the pocket
of her jacket, handed Buffy a cell phone. "Call him. His number's
programmed in."
Buffy tried to give it back.
"B, quit being an
asshole and call him." Faith pointed to a screened off area in the
warehouse. "Sleep there. Call first."
Angel was the first entry in
the address book. Buffy's finger hovered over the send key, then she put the phone down and rolled onto the cot, not
bothering to pull off her boots.
Sleep came quickly, but it
didn't touch her gently. She woke thrashing from the last in a series of
nightmares. This one about the night Dawn had tried to bring their mother back—only
this time Dawn didn't tear up the photo, and Buffy let a thing that looked like
her mom into the house. Dawn didn't survive. Buffy woke to the sound of her own
screams as in her dream, her mother tried to tear her throat out.
The screaming went on, and
Buffy realized it was Dana. She heard Faith yelling, couldn't hear anything
from Robin. She sprinted across the warehouse, taking the stairs three at a
time and nearly barreled into Faith as she ran into the room where Dana was
locked up.
Dana had Robin by the throat,
a plate of food spilled at his feet. It looked like any second
she might twist and Robin's neck would snap, even though he was holding on to
her hands as if he could stop her from killing him.
Everything seemed to change
to slow motion: Faith pulling a knife from somewhere, the snap of the blade as
she released it, as it flew, deadly true, past Robin's head, into Dana's eye—into
Dana's poor tangled brain.
Dana jerked back and let go
of Robin as she yanked the dagger out of her eye. Blood spurted from the ruined
socket as she tried to stab Robin with the knife, but he launched himself away
from the cage, falling hard and scrambling for the door and Faith.
Dana stood, studying the
knife with her one eye. Then she smiled, and it was a wrenching expression, a
happiness born of violence and horror. "Falling makes it better," she
said, as she pushed the knife into her chest and fell forward.
Buffy could hear the blade as
it cut into her, moved but felt Faith grab her.
"She's not dead yet,
B."
"We have to help
her."
"No. She's finished. Just
let her bleed. It's what she wanted. It's what she needs." Helping Robin
up, Faith touched his neck where bruises were already springing up. "You okay?"
"Yeah. Nice shot."
Buffy knelt, then slid down
to lie on the cold cement, her cheek on the floor, a mirror image to how Dana
lay.
"Missed the heart. This
way's slower. But close enough." Dana reached out, her hand stretching
across the growing pool of blood. "No more pain. Falling makes it
stop."
Buffy reached into the cage,
past the bars, and touched Dana's hand. "No. No, it really doesn't."
But Dana's smile changed, and
she turned her hand so her fingers could touch Buffy's. "It will. It has
to." And in that moment, she almost sounded sane.
They lay like that while Dana
bled and the light went slowly out of her eyes. They lay like that long past
the time when it was needed. Faith and Robin went upstairs, and Buffy didn't
move.
When she finally got up and
walked to the stairs, she saw the cell phone waiting for her on the bottom
step. Sitting, she found Angel's entry, hit send.
It only rang a few times,
then "Hello? Faith?"
"It's me."
There was silence. She
probably deserved that. But...no. She didn't. Angel wasn't supposed to work in
that place, with those people. He wasn't supposed to—
"You couldn't have saved
her," she whispered into the stillness. "I couldn't save her."
"She's dead?" Angel's
voice was cold.
"Yes."
"Spike will be
relieved."
It was odd. Angel caring more
about Spike's feelings than hers. Or his own.
"I'm sure he will
be." It wasn't the right thing to say. She should say she was sorry for
not trusting him.
She should say she still
loved him.
She should say anything, not
just hang on the line waiting for him to say more.
"I have things to
do," he finally said. "And we're...finished. Right? No trust anymore?"
Andrew had told him that. She'd
told Andrew to tell him that. But they weren't finished. They'd never be
finished. He was her soul mate. Wasn't he?
"I have to go." Her
soul mate hung up on her. The cell helpfully telling her that the call had
ended in case the extreme lack of words during the minute more she hung on
didn't clue her in.
Pushing herself to her feet,
Buffy saw Faith waiting for her at the top of the stairs. She tossed her the
cell phone, then turned and headed back to sit with Dana.
"She's dead,
Buffy."
"And we did all we
could, right?"
"We did." Faith
sounded tired—sick to death of Buffy and this poor, doomed slayer she'd brought
her. That was what a Hellmouth could do to a girl.
Make her strong. Make her
hard.
And falling would never make
it better.
FIN