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story is Rated R.
Plato's Goodbye
by Djinn
Her goodbye party was in full
swing. Actually it was long past full
swing and was definitely into the running on empty stage. Chapel felt arms grab her, was swung into yet
another crewman's embrace. She was
suddenly much too aware of soggy lips and an overly aggressive tongue. She pushed hard, finally worked her way
free.
She didn't recognize the
lieutenant who was holding her.
"I will miss you so
much," he said, trying to pull her back to him.
A hand came down on his arm. "I think Miss Chapel's gotten the
message, Ensign."
"It's lieutenant,
Captain."
Kirk's grin was a bit
dangerous. "Yes. If you stop now, it is."
Her admirer nodded
quickly. "Right,
sir. I'll be going now."
She smiled at Kirk once the
lieutenant was gone. He laughed and gave
her his trademark shrug and grin. His
hand stole out, touched hers.
"And how much have you
had to drink?" she asked.
"I'm perfectly
sober." He laughed again.
"Right. That's why you
felt compelled to defend my honor." She moved a little closer.
"Somebody had to. And it is my ship." He smiled.
"And fortunately you won't be on it much longer." He frowned.
"That came out wrong."
She nodded. "Major deductions for the
dismount, Jim." She shook
her head. "So I take it you're
looking forward to not being my C.O.?"
The look he gave her was
scorching.
She smiled. "And when is your next leave?" She moved a little closer.
"Two months, three
weeks, four days." His smile
grew. "And five hours give or take."
She laughed. "Not eager or anything."
"Not
at all." He took her arm, moved her toward the viewport. "So
much has happened since Platonius."
She nodded. Her life was finally on track, she was really
going away to med school. And it was an added
treat to have him interested in her, to know that he cared. She'd wondered, after their night together--their
one night together. He'd kept his
distance...from her. From what McCoy had
said, Jim had fallen hard for that android woman during
the Rigellian Fever outbreak. And then Lester had taken his body. Chapel had felt like an idiot that she'd just
bought Lester's story, that she hadn't even tried to
find out if the woman who'd been held prisoner in sickbay remembered that
night. It would have been so simple.
Of course, he hadn't thought
to ask for her help either. He'd been so
sure only Spock could rescue him.
He seemed to be reading her
mind. "If I'm ever in someone
else's body again, I promise to turn to you for help."
She smiled. "Ditto."
"Whose body do you plan
to be in?"
"Very
funny."
He laughed. "I'm going to miss you."
"Yes, because we've
spent so much time together since that night." She winced.
Her words had come out much harsher than she'd intended.
"You know why."
She sighed. "I do.
I'm sorry." She looked out
at the stars. "I'll miss this. No more starstream."
"Nope." He touched the
viewport, ran his finger down, as if tracing a
pattern of stars. "I can't imagine
giving this up."
"I can't imagine you on
the ground." She laughed
softly. "Well, maybe for a few
days...or longer."
He smiled. "At your place?"
She nodded. Turning, she saw that the party had moved
away from them, as if giving them some privacy.
She laughed softly. "They
think this is the talk."
"The talk?"
"The one you give
everyone who goes away. About what an
honor it's been serving with them and how they are the heart of what makes this
ship great."
He laughed. "Am I that predictable?"
She nodded. "It's a legend, the talk is. Just like you." She smiled.
"It's a good thing. People
want the talk."
"I'll take your word for
it. I'm assuming I don't have to give it
to you since you seem to know it word for word."
She nodded.
"And for the record, I
do tailor it to the person."
She smiled contritely. She'd hit a bit of a nerve. "I know you do." She looked down. "I'm sorry."
"What
for?"
"For
being sharp and edgy." She made a face. "I'm just feeling strange. Excited but a little
adrift. And I wish..."
"I know. I do too." He touched her arm gently.
"Later. On Earth. Wanting it this bad now will just build
character, right?"
He nodded. "Although I'm fine with the amount of
character you have already."
She laughed out loud, then wondered how many heads turned at the sound.
He grinned. "And don't worry,
you'll do great at med school."
She nodded.
He glanced over his shoulder. "You have friends who want to say
goodbye. As long as I monopolize you,
they won't."
She nodded. "I'll see you in two months..."
"Three weeks, four
days. And five hours."
"Give or
take." She smiled.
He pulled her to him, it probably looked like nothing more than an impromptu
hug for a longtime member of his crew.
"I can't wait."
"Me either," she
whispered.
She felt his lips come down
half on her hair, half on her ear, then he let her go
and turned away. He worked his way
around the room, talking to everyone.
But she had the feeling he was keeping watch for more sloppy goodbye
kisses.
There weren't any, but there
were lots of hugs, and kisses on the cheek.
Even Spock touched her hand briefly, and she smiled at him. She was glad to be finally free of the crush,
knew he was probably even gladder, despite the fact that he'd sought her out
after the Platonians.
Too bad she'd been otherwise engaged.
Uhura and Sulu helped carry
her goodbye gifts to her quarters. They
stayed for a while, reminiscing with her while she
packed the mementos safely away.
Finally, they got up.
"Don't say goodbye. I don't want to hear it." Uhura pulled her close. "I don't know what I'm going to do
without you."
"Me either, Ny."
Sulu gave her a quick
hug. "Good luck, Chris."
She nodded, touched his cheek
for a moment. He was so solid, so
goodhearted.
The room seemed very quiet as
she puttered around in it. Soon there
was nothing left but the things she needed for the night. She could pack them in the morning.
She took a deep breath. She was really doing this. She was leaving.
She felt panic come over
her. Good lord, what was she doing?
She forced the panic
away. This was what she wanted. She moved toward the bed, was about to call
for lights out when her chime buzzed.
Wrapping
her robe around her, moved to the door.
It was Kirk. She moved back without a thought and he
ducked in, not hiding...exactly.
"What's wrong?" she
asked.
He walked past her, into the
room. "I didn't like that last
goodbye. Something was missing."
She moved toward him. "It was?"
He nodded.
She stopped, just out of
reach. "So, you intend to remedy
that?"
He closed the gap between
them. "I do."
She could feel a huge grin
starting.
"I take it you don't
object?" he asked.
"Not
at all."
His grin was pretty damn huge
too. He pulled her to him, kissed her
the way she remembered from their night--so long ago that night had been. Ages. Decades. Eons.
He pulled away. Sighed as he touched her
hair. "I will miss you. I know I've avoided you. It was just...too difficult. If it had just been sex..."
She felt a tug somewhere near
her stomach. It hadn't just been sex for
her either. She hadn't been able to get that
night out of her mind. Even after
Lester, when they'd finally talked again, when he'd finally let her in a
little, she'd thought that she might be making too much out of this.
He seemed to be waiting for
her to say something. She saw
disappointment fill his eyes, realized he wasn't sure about her, about what she
was feeling.
It touched her and was the
last thing she expected. "It wasn't
for me either."
The disappointment
faded. "No?" He smiled as he began to untie her robe.
"Not
at all." She kissed him again. "We connected. I don't normally feel that comfortable with
someone."
He pushed the robe off her
shoulders. Her nightgown followed it to
the floor. "I know."
She looked down at the pooled
fabric, then back up at him. "I
seem to be naked."
He laughed. "Yes, you do. How did that happen?"
"Beats
me. This really cute guy came in to say goodbye
and the next thing you know..."
"Happens a lot to you,
does it?"
"Only
when I leave. Only when it's you." She rubbed up against him. "Why am I naked, by the way?"
"Well, if you have to
ask..." He pretended to walk away,
laughed as she caught him and pulled him back.
"When I said I couldn't wait, I meant it."
She smiled. "When I said I couldn't either, I meant
it too." She made short work of his
uniform.
"Better?" he asked
with a smile.
"Much."
"Well, we're both naked. What now?" He was pushing her back to the bed, even as
he teased her.
"I'm not sure. Did you want to play chess?"
He shook his head.
"Watch a vid?"
His mouth was roaming all
over her body.
She moaned. "No, I'm guessing vids
are out."
He looked up at her. "Sometimes they're fun."
She laughed as she pulled him
up to her, lost herself in kissing him.
God, it really was this good. She
hadn't made it better in her imagination.
He pulled away, stared down
at her, his look thoughtful, and a little bit sad. "I will miss you. And I have thought about this." He ran his hand down her side, causing her to
shiver as he hit a ticklish place.
"More than you'll ever know."
She lay still,
just let herself look at him. She hadn't
done that. She hadn't gone out of her
way to avoid running into him as he'd seemed to do with her, but she also hadn't
let herself really look at him since that night. It had been too hard for her too. "I can imagine. I know how much I've thought about it."
He smiled gently, traced her
cheekbone, then down her neck, staring at her until she had to look away. No one had ever watched her the way he was. She could tell he wasn't just looking, he was
seeing. All of her. More of her than she normally showed anyone.
She captured his hand. "We're naked and I'm leaving in the
morning. You sure you want to waste time
staring at me?" She smiled gently.
"No time with you is a
waste."
"Oh. That's so nice." She pulled him down, kissed him
fiercely. She let herself go, let
herself relax, trusting that he wouldn't hurt her now just like he hadn't hurt
her then. Then she realized that was the
wrong way to think about it. With him,
she should think about what he would do, not what he wouldn't.
With him, she had a
future. It was an odd feeling.
She almost started to
panic. Then she remembered that he'd
still be on the ship. They could ease
into this. She didn't have to make the
adjustment to actually being happy all at once.
She giggled at how stupid
that thought was.
He pulled away, gave her a
funny look. "You
all right?"
"I'm happy." She thought he'd have no idea what a
revelation that was.
But his eyes were full of
understanding. "I know. Feels strange, doesn't it?" He moved over her, into her, smiled as she
arched up under him. As he moved, he
whispered, "I'm happy too, Chris."
She dug her fingers into his back, let him know just how much she'd missed him. How lonely her nights had been since the one
they'd spent together. She didn't know
if his had been as lonely, didn't care anymore.
Despite his reputation, she had a feeling once Jim Kirk decided he was
happy with someone, he wouldn't stray.
He rolled them, let her ride
him, smiled as he watched her. He held her with one hand, touched her in
places that made her crazy with the other.
As she called out, she heard him whisper, "Chris."
Once she could breathe again,
she moved against him. His eyes closed
and his jaw clenched as he surrendered to her.
Then he was calling out, and she watched him as he came down. She whispered his name, kissed his cheek.
He pulled her down to cuddle
against him. His lips were lazy and
sweet on her face as she lay pressed along his side.
His arms felt so good around her. So damned good. She wanted him, wanted this.
Was she making too much of
it? Was it more than sex but less than a
commitment?
"What are you thinking
about?" he asked softly.
She shook her head. "Nothing."
"Yes, you are. You're frowning."
She nestled deeper into his
arms, didn't look up as she said softly, "I'm making an assumption. It may be a foolish one."
He waited. Then he laughed softly. "Do I have to guess what it is?"
"No. I'm working up my nerve to tell you."
"Ah." He kissed her, moved her slightly so it was
less of a stretch for them to kiss. His lips
were soft, gentle. Loving. "Just how much nerve do you need to work
up?"
"A
lot." She smiled.
"Okay. I'm ready." She took a deep breath. "What is this?"
"Define this."
"You
and me." She held up her hand. "This is coming out all wrong. Look, just tell me straight. We're good together and it's not just sex but
you don't mean me to think that it's exclusive, right? Because you're on the ship and I'll be on
Earth, and...well...you're human and--"
He kissed her. When he finally pulled away, he laughed. "You're an idiot."
"Okay. Not the response I expected, but you're
certainly entitled to your opinion."
He laughed again. Kissed her harder. "Is not exclusive what you want? Or just what you think I want?"
"The
second one."
"Oh." He sighed.
They lay in silence for a
long moment.
Then he said, "I'm not
in love with you."
She laughed, and the sound of
her laugh was too bitter. She tried for
a smile. It shook. "I know."
"Let me
finish." He touched her lips,
smiled sadly as they trembled under his finger.
She tried to make them
stop. Couldn't.
He kissed her again. This time the kiss was so tender she almost
cried. "I'm not in love with
you...yet." He kissed her again,
didn't stop until they were both out of breath.
She smiled.
"I like the idea of
exclusive," he said softly. "I
don't want to share."
"It's not just you
sharing me that's involved in that exclusive thing,
you know."
He pulled her leg up over his
hip, moved closer, until they were one again.
As she made happy sounds, he said softly, "I know that."
"So, we're..." She couldn't think of the right way to define
them.
"A
couple. We're a couple." He moved faster, his hands far too many
places--and making her moan. "Now,
have we got that straightened out?"
She nodded.
"Good," he said,
abandoning talk and focusing all his energy on her until her world exploded and
he followed her into pleasure.
They lay still, and he
brushed her hair back from her face.
"I wanted to deck that lieutenant tonight if it helps reinforce the
couple concept?"
"It does
actually." She smiled, moved her leg
so she could cuddle in again. "You
showed great restraint."
"I thought
so." He kissed her forehead. "Are you tired?"
She nodded. "Are you going to let me sleep?"
"I can."
"Do you want to?"
He laughed. "No."
She smiled, the smile turned
into a yawn.
"Go to sleep. I'll wake you up if I can't stand it."
She shook her head. "I don't want to waste this chance to
connect."
"We can connect other
ways." He kissed her gently. "Go to sleep."
She kissed him back, wondered
if she would ever get tired of the feeling of his lips on hers. Then she settled back into his arms and fell
asleep.
Until he
woke her up.
Over and
over and over again.
FIN