DISCLAIMER: The Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Angel characters are the property of Mutant Enemy, Joss Whedon, and Fox Studios. The story contents are the creation and property of Djinn and are copyright (c) 2001 by Djinn. This story is Rated PG-13.
Gravity
Part
6 – Truce
by Djinn
"Come on, put your back into it. A Watcher scoffs at gravity." – Giles to Spike, Restless
Buffy walked quickly back to
the house. It was stupid to have gone
out. Anyone could have seen her and
wondered why a supposedly dead woman was walking around the neighborhood again. But she had been worried about Dawn, had
needed to make sure she went to school.
It had been a jolt to see her sister with Faith. Buffy's first reaction had been anger, her
second jealousy.
She could still see the
impulsive hug Dawn had given the other slayer.
It was clear her sister looked up to Faith, loved her even. And it was also clear that Faith loved
Dawn. Would do anything for her, even if
it meant making peace with her enemy.
Buffy had been flabbergasted when Faith had put away her weapon and
declared that they were not going to fight.
She couldn't imagine the Faith she remembered walking away from any
fight.
But this wasn't the Faith she
had known. As much as Buffy wanted to
deny it, the rogue slayer had truly changed.
Her whole attitude was different.
The angry young woman was gone.
Which was not to say she wasn't still a dangerous young woman. Buffy wouldn't have wanted to try to hurt
something Faith loved. But she could see
that the other slayer's need to pay the world back, and Buffy with it, seemed
to have eased.
Even the way Faith looked was
different. Her makeup was softer, her
clothing less extreme. She was sexy now
without being slutty. Was that Giles'
influence? Or the months in prison? Or was it Angel's?
Buffy didn't want to go down
that road, resolutely steered her mind to other issues. Such as how she was going to explain her
sudden reappearance. Dawn had been
right, Buffy did need to talk to Giles about this.
She bounded up the stairs and
into the front room.
Spike looked up quickly. "Shouldn't have gone out," he said
in disapproval.
"I know."
He seemed surprised at the
admission. "See anything
interesting? Kill anyone?"
"Very funny." She walked into the kitchen, poured some
orange juice.
He stood in the doorway
watching her.
She tried to pretend he
wasn't there, concentrated on her drink.
Finally, she turned to him in exasperation. "Don't worry, Dawn didn't know I was
following her."
"Good. She's mad enough at us as it is."
"At me, you mean,"
she edged around him and headed for the couch.
"I doubt that she could get mad at you at this point."
He shrugged. "She's been mad at me plenty of
times. Just not lately is all."
She smiled. "I ran into Faith there too."
He watched her intently.
"We made peace. Or our version of it."
"Good. Faith's alright."
She laughed mockingly. "I hardly take that as a recommendation,
Spike." She looked around, as if
reacquainting herself with the living room.
"How's it feel to be
back?"
"Ok. Getting better.
"Wasn't much time last
night for the full story."
"Or else she didn't want
to make me any more angry than I already was."
"That too I
suppose."
"Well, why don't you
catch me up the rest of the way. Say for
instance, what happened to that damned robot?
Did
He shook his head. "Didn't have the heart, none of us
did. She took it apart and we melted
what we could. The rest she used in
other projects or threw away. Said she
wanted to make sure that nobody every rebuilt her again."
"Thank god for
that." She sighed. "What about Riley, he didn't come back
did he?"
"Captain America didn't
show his face. You aren't still mooning
over him, are you?"
"He's a better man than
you, Spike." Her tone was neutral
despite the harshness of the words. She
wasn't sure anymore if she really believed in Riley's goodness, or Spike's
wickedness.
"Sure he is." Spike got up, his face carefully controlled.
"I'm sorry," she
surprised herself by saying. "I
shouldn't have said that."
"No, I imagine you
shouldn't have." He walked away,
then stopped and without turning around said, "Thing is, I guess when you
were dead I made up this little fantasy that you'd come back and see all the
good I've done and how Dawn is alright because of me and you'd think the better
of me for it. Maybe a lot
better." He sighed. "From where I stand now, that fantasy
looks pretty dim."
"Spike..." She wasn't sure what she wanted to say.
He walked out of the room
before she could continue.
She sat alone for a while,
then wandered upstairs. Willow and Tara
were out. She was suddenly very
tired. She pulled off her boots and walked
to her bed. Not bothering to get
undressed she crawled under the covers and quickly fell asleep.
She woke hours later. Had the sense of someone watching her. Turned quickly in annoyance, expecting it to
be Spike. It was Giles.
"Oh," she said in
surprise.
He smiled, the gentle smile
she loved. "Did you sleep
well?"
She nodded, sat up in bed.
He came to sit next to
her. Stared at her for the longest
time. "To see you again is a luxury
I never thought I'd have."
She swallowed hard. "About what I said last night..."
His expression was
stern. "I'm not going to explain
myself to you. Or defend the choices
I've made."
"I know."
"I'm with Faith
now. I know you don't like it, but
you'll have to accept it."
"She and I talked."
"Yes, she told me."
Buffy nodded. "Dawn really loves her."
"So do I." Giles voice was slightly defiant.
"Yeah." She looked down. Her voice was very small. "Do you still love me?"
"Oh, Buffy, how can you
even ask that?"
She looked up to see him
smiling at her, realized his eyes were bright with unshed tears. "Giles?
I've been so scared. It was so
hard to hang on."
"I know." He held his arms open to her. "But you're safe now."
This time she didn't
hesitate; she lifted her own arms up, held him tightly.
"Buffy," he
murmured. "I thought I'd lost you
forever."
"You can't get rid of me
that easily." She smiled into his
chest. Her watcher. She had her watcher back. Then doubt crept in. "Are you still my watcher, Giles?"
"Why? Did you want to switch over to
Spike?" His tone was gently
teasing.
She laughed softly. "No.
As in please god no." She
buried her head tighter into his chest, whispered, "It's just that you have
Faith now, too."
"And I imagine that
there will be quite a bit of adjustment for all of us. But you were my first slayer and you will
always be that. My relationship with
Faith doesn't change that."
"Ok," she said, not
quite believing.
"Let's go downstairs
now. Everyone is here. Amy wants to go home and we have to decide
how to explain her absence."
"And my
reappearance. I can't stay in the house
forever."
"No, you
can't." He got up, held his hand
out.
"You go on. Just give me a minute, and I'll be down
there."
"Of course." He smiled at her, his expression full of
joy. "Welcome home, Buffy."
His delight was
infectious. She found herself grinning
back broadly even if she still wasn't exactly sure what home meant.
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Xander looked around the
living room. This was all so weird. And so great.
Buffy was back, Amy was human, even seeing Spike and Faith was somehow
normal now. Dawn came in holding a soda,
she seemed subdued. "Hey, Dawnster,
come sit next to me."
She smiled and joined him on
the couch.
"So what's with the long
face?"
"School sucked."
He chuckled. "I hear you there. It's really unfair we have to sit in school
for all those years and miss out on some quality sleeping time."
She giggled. "Where's Anya?"
He rolled his eyes. "She's up with Tara searching the
internet for a wedding dress she liked.
Someone she once granted the power of the wish wore it."
"How long ago?"
"Oh, 1481 I think she
said." He shrugged. "Apparently the blushing bride sat for
some famous painter. If Anya can find
the portrait she can get the dress copied."
"Seems like a lot of
work for a dress," Dawn observed.
"Preaching to the choir
here." He saw Anya and Tara coming
down the stairs. Anya held some papers
in her hand. "Looks like they met
with success."
"See," Anya said as
she sat down on the other side of Xander and held out the picture. "Isn't it beautiful?"
He looked at the dress. It was white and sort of involved. He wasn't sure why it was prettier than any
of the other dresses she'd shown him.
"It's great, An. Whatever
you want, you know that."
She kissed him. "I know.
I want our wedding to be perfect."
"As long as you're in
it, it will be," he responded, trying to ignore Dawn who was making
gagging motions.
"I saw that," Anya
told her. "Keep it up and you won't
be the flower girl."
"I don't want to be the
flower girl. And I'm like way too
old."
"I have to have a flower
girl. All the books say so. A young girl to strew lovely petals ahead of
me. It's required. And you are the only young girl I know."
Dawn rolled her eyes. "Fine, I'm the strewer."
"Strewer. Slayer.
Man, are you multi-talented," Xander winked at her.
Buffy walked over and Anya
dug into her purse. The ex-demon pulled
out a fabric swatch and handed it to the slayer. "I've decided you can be one of my
attendants."
"Oh, joy." Buffy eyed the peach taffeta dubiously. "Who else is going to be in it?"
"Well, Willow and Tara
of course."
The two witches looked over
with identical expressions of dismay.
Anya ignored them. "But I think I need more
attendants. Three is not
enough." She stood. "Faith, Amy, I'd like you in my
wedding."
Amy seemed to be frantically
thinking up an excuse, but Faith just shook her head. "I don't do weddings, Anya."
"Nonsense. You will look stunning in this
color." She handed a fabric swatch
over. "There's a picture on the
other side."
Faith studied it. "This is like a prom dress. In hell." She handed it back. "I don't think so."
Xander tried and failed to
imagine Faith in the poufy dress Anya had picked out. Faith may have changed, he thought, but not
that much.
Giles stood up. "All right, everyone. It's time to figure out some things. Let's start with Amy's situation." He looked over at the young woman, who smiled
at him gratefully. "I imagine you
would like to go home, my dear. And I
know your father is missing you."
"He really is,"
Willow confirmed.
"But you've been missing
now for two years. You can't just
reappear without a decent reason for your absence. Especially with Buffy showing up at the same
time."
"I thought I could say I
had amnesia. That happens after a bump
on the head, right? And that MOO group
did hit me when they captured me."
"People can go for years
not remembering," Tara agreed.
"And nobody really knows what triggers their memory when it does
come back."
Giles nodded. "I was thinking along those lines
too. But Amy, I think that it would be
better for you and better for us if you were found in LA and not here. Will cause less questions all around."
"Plus then you won't
have to explain to your dad why you were in Sunnydale and didn't come to him at
once," Willow offered with a wry smile.
Faith spoke up. "Angel can help. He knows a woman who runs a shelter for kids
on the street. He did her a favor or
two, she could probably vouch for you having come in a few times."
When Faith mentioned Angel,
Xander turned to see Buffy's response.
Her face tightened a bit but otherwise she didn't react.
Amy looked around. "I can do that. But how will I get there without being
seen?"
"I'll take you,"
Tara said before anyone else could reply.
"I have no connection with Angel or LA."
Buffy spoke up suddenly. "I'd like to ride with you."
Giles frowned. "I don't think that's a good idea."
"Why not?"
"Maybe because you're
supposed to be dead," Faith answered sharply.
"Or maybe because you
don't want me to see Angel?" Buffy's voice was bitter.
"Why should I care who
you see?" Faith sounded
serious. "It's just seems kind of
stupid for you to go with them, if the whole point is to make it like there's
no connection between your reappearance and Amy's."
Buffy's lips tightened but
she didn't argue.
Giles nodded. "Ok then. I'll call Angel and see if he can arrange
things. If all goes well, Amy can be in
LA in a few hours and back in Sunnydale by nightfall. I'm sure your father will be thrilled to see
you."
Amy smiled at him happily.
"But what about
Buffy?" Xander asked. "How we
going to explain her coming back from the dead?
I mean there's a tombstone and everything."
There was an uncomfortable
silence.
"And it's not like your
face was all mooshed so that we couldn't tell that it wasn't really you that
died," Dawn said pensively.
"Evil twin?" Willow
offered. "You know, sort of like in
the Parent Trap. You were separated and
then impersonated each other?"
Buffy raised her
eyebrows.
"It could work,"
Willow objected.
"Well except that Dad
won't remember any twin," Buffy objected.
"Maybe he didn't
know. Maybe the twin was stolen by a
crazed nurse that wanted a child of her own?" Willow was running with the idea.
Giles smiled. "Yes, well, I supposed that's a
possibility."
Spike spoke up, "Well
you could do like a vampire does. Remain
officially dead. Then live a life
outside of society."
"Good idea, Spike. Hey, maybe she could move in with you?"
Xander scoffed.
"I'm just saying it's
the way we come back from the dead.
Happens all the time."
"I'd prefer to have my
old life back, thanks." Buffy
looked at Giles. "There must be a
way."
"Plastic surgery,"
Anya offered. "Someone wanted to
kidnap you. But they didn't want us to
know. So they hired a strange woman to
impersonate you and they redid her face so she looked exactly liked you. Unfortunately she slipped and fell off a big
tower and then you got away from the kidnappers and came back."
Xander laughed. "Well it worked on Bionic Woman, it
could work for us."
Buffy closed her eyes. "Scary as these ideas are sounding they
just might work."
"Why not make people
forget?" Dawn looked around. "Make whole new memories. Like the monks did when they made me?"
Everyone looked at her. Then they turned and looked at Willow.
"I know. Ask D'Hoffryn for the spell." She looked around. "Do I have to go to Arashmaharr
now?"
Giles shook his head. "Let's see if we can come up with
another idea before we resort to him.
Lord knows what he'll want in return for this spell."
"Don't think you'll be
out and about tomorrow, Buff," Xander noted sadly.
She sighed. "Well, I'd rather we do this right than
rush it. But we should get Amy
home. Are you going to make that call,
Giles?"
He nodded. "Maybe you'd like to say hello to Angel
before I get into the details with him?"
She smiled gratefully and
rose to join him. "That would be
great."
They went into the kitchen.
Tara looked over at
Xander. "Can I borrow your
car?" At his nod, she looked over
at Willow, "We can put a glamour on it, make it look completely
different."
The other witch nodded. "Sure we can, good thinking."
Amy smiled. "I'll be home soon. This is so great."
Xander saw her smile
fade. "Do I hear a but coming
on?"
She nodded. "I've missed two years. I'll never catch up."
"I graduated with no
real schooling to prepare me. You can
finish too. It's not that hard,"
Anya countered.
"Or you can go for your
GED. I'll help you study," Willow
offered.
"We need another
rat," Tara said. At their looks,
she explained. "We don't want
anything to look funny right? Willow's
been caring for you as a rat, Amy, since high school. How do we explain the sudden
disappearance? I'm going to look at the
pet stores when I'm in LA. A brown rat
shouldn't be that hard to find."
"Good thinking,"
Willow smiled at her.
Faith nudged Dawn. "We could be patrolling."
Dawn looked uncertainly into
the kitchen. "Buffy?"
Faith shook her head. "Shouldn't come out till she's
officially alive again. That doesn't
mean we get to slack off."
Xander watched the two
slayers. Dawn was growing up so fast
around Faith. On the other hand, he
wasn't sure there was anyone better to keep her alive.
"Mind some
company?" Spike asked.
"The more the
merrier," Faith smiled back. She
turned to Amy. "Good luck and
all."
Dawn smiled at Amy and
followed Faith out. Spike was about to
go but Amy held out her hand and stopped him.
"So did you find out the
answer to that question I asked?"
He shook his head. "Jury's still out. But it's not looking good for the
defendant."
She gave him a dazzling
smile. "Is it tacky to say
yay?"
He grinned back, "I
wouldn't say tacky, exactly."
Dawn's voice sounded from the
hall, "Spike, you with us or not?"
He gave Amy another grin and
hurried out.
"He's yummy," Amy
observed.
"You really have been a
rat too long." Xander made a face
at her.
She just laughed.
Anya picked up the fabric
swatch that Faith had rejected and handed it to Amy. "Maybe while you're in LA you could look
for shoes to match this?"
Amy gulped.
Willow took pity on Amy. "Anya, she can't be in your
wedding. That would make no sense if
she's trying to look like she's been away forever. Three attendants and a flower girl will have
to be enough."
Anya pouted. Then she looked at Xander. "Maybe you could work on Faith?"
"Oh no." He held up his hands. "I'm staying out of this one, An."
She glared at him but it
didn't change his mind. There was little
his fiancée could do to him that compared to what he could expect from Faith if
he pressed the subject of wearing a peach bridesmaid's dress in his
wedding. He might be kind of slow on the
uptake sometimes, he thought wryly, but he wasn't a fool.
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Buffy watched Giles dial the
phone, her heart hammering wildly. The
last time she had seen Angel had been the night of her mother's burial. She could still recall standing by the
gravesite and sensing his presence, holding out her hand and feeling his
envelope it.
Giles' voice brought her out
of her reverie. "Hello again,
Cordelia."
Buffy made a face.
"Yes, it's me. No, I don't need help with Faith. She's really quite all right. I was hoping to speak with Angel please. Thank you." There was a pause as Giles waited.
"She hasn't changed
much." Buffy smiled.
"According to Wesley she
has but it's damned difficult to see any difference from here." He perked up.
"Angel? I have a bit of a
pressing problem now. No, not that spell
you and Wesley were helping us with. Do
you remember Amy the Rat? Yes well she's
been deratted and now I need to be able to get her back into human life without
attracting undue attention. Faith
thought perhaps your friend Anne could help with that?"
Buffy couldn't wait any
longer. Nudging Giles to get his
attention, she pointed to the phone, then to herself.
He nodded in
understanding. "We can work the
details out in a minute. I have someone
that wants to tell you why we no longer need that spell." He handed her the phone and walked away to
give her some privacy.
She took a deep breath before
lifting the receiver to her ear.
"Angel?"
There was silence, then an
incredulous, "Buffy?"
"It's me."
There was no sound from the
other end. "Angel?" she said
worriedly.
"I'm here. Just trying to take this in." More silence.
"You're really back?"
"I'm really
back." She smiled at his
bewilderment.
"But...how?"
"Magic. I was trapped in the portal I fell into. They figured out a way to bring me
back."
"Wow." There was more silence. Then he chuckled, "I guess I should be
used to the idea by now, I mean I came back from hell, Wolfram and Hart brought
Darla back from the dead, now you."
Just the thought of Darla
made Buffy jealous. Angel had told her
as they sat by her mother's grave how his sire had come back to life a human,
how he had tried to save her. Buffy
could remember the sorrow in his voice when he told her how he couldn't stop
Drusilla from turning Darla again. There
had been something more, something he wasn't saying.
"Yeah, well resurrection
still isn't your everyday occurrence," she teased.
"Guess it's that whole
higher purpose thing," he mused.
"You and I are necessary and all that."
"I guess. It feels strange though, being back I
mean."
"I know. Nothing has changed but everything's
different. I felt the same way."
"I remember."
He chuckled. "You at least seem to have come back
sane. I guess Giles isn't having to
chain you up the way you did me?"
"Oh I'm sure he gets
plenty of that kind of action with Faith," she said sarcastically.
"Huh?"
Buffy felt guilty. She shouldn't have said that. She tried to backtrack. "I mean as his new slayer and all."
He wasn't fooled. "They're lovers?"
Why, she wondered, are you
jealous? "Yeah."
"Wouldn't have seen
that. But she's changed a lot since you
saw her last."
"Yeah I know." Buffy didn't want to talk about Faith
anymore. "So what about you, how
are you doing?"
"Me? Oh I'm good." He suddenly seemed distracted.
Buffy thought she could hear
someone else talking "So you're
busy? I mean with the detective
business?"
He was whispering, "Not
now. I'll look at it later."
Another voice was arguing in
a crazy singsong way. It sort of
reminded Buffy of Drusilla. Angel wasn't
trying to reform her too, was he? "Who
is that, Angel?"
"That? Oh, that's Fred."
"Fred?"
"Yeah."
"Voice is a bit high for
your typical Fred."
"Oh. Well, that's because this Fred is a
woman."
"Used to be a cow
though. Heh. Got away and ate bark in a cave," the
woman said.
"No bark now, Fred. Why don't you go get some oatmeal?" Angel's voice was gentle.
Buffy felt her heart
sink. She wasn't sure what she had been
expecting. Angel picked up strays all
the time. That's what he did, helped those
that had nowhere else to turn. It didn't
mean anything. But something about this
one bothered her more than most.
"Listen, you sound really busy with Fred and all, and I know Giles
needs to talk to you, so I'm going to let you go."
"Buffy?"
She didn't say anything, just
waited.
"I missed you."
"I missed you
too." She felt tears threaten. Sniffed several times. She motioned to Giles. Before she handed the phone to him she said
to Angel, "I'll see you around?"
"Count on it," he
said softly.
The voice in the background
was clear, "Don't just count. Make
it harder. See like this. One, four, nine, sixteen, twenty-five,
thirty-six, forty-nine..."
Buffy passed the receiver to
her watcher, tried to fight the irritation she felt. She wandered into the front room.
Willow came over. "How'd it go?"
"Good," Buffy
remembered that Willow had told her she had been the one to tell Angel that the
slayer had died. "You saw this Fred
person, right?"
Willow thought back. "Oh, yeah, the one they rescued from
that demon world."
"So, umm, what does she
look like?"
Willow frowned. "Gosh, Buff. I don't remember."
"Will, was she
pretty?"
Her friend grinned
sheepishly. "Well ok, maybe I
noticed a little. She's small, long dark
hair, real delicate looking. But she's
like totally loony on account of too long a stay in that demon place. I mean in a mad scientist kind of way because
she seems really smart too."
Buffy frowned. "I think she's staying there."
"Oh, Buffy, you know
that doesn't mean anything. Angel is
still totally in love with you."
"Sure. I know."
But she didn't know anymore. He
seemed to love so many people. Faith, Darla,
now this Fred person. Buffy might
believe she was his soul mate but it sure was getting crowded in his soul.
She looked around. "Where's Dawn?"
"Patrolling with Spike
and Faith." At her look, Willow
defended the others. "You really
shouldn't be seen, Buffy. You know
that. That's why they didn't ask you to
come."
"It's like they snuck
out," Buffy complained.
"Oh there was nothing
sneaky about it. They got up, announced
their plans, and left same as always."
"You know what I
mean." She dropped the subject as
she saw Giles come out.
"We're all set,
Amy. Angel is already making some
calls. It may take a bit longer than we
thought. He wants you to become a
familiar face around the shelter so that when you do 'suddenly' remember who
you are there will be a number of people to back the story up. Do you mind living a lie for a week or
so?"
Amy shook her head. "I was worrying about how I would
explain being gone. This sounds
good. Kind of scary though."
"Just think of how happy
your dad will be when you call him from LA." Willow shared a smile with Amy.
Tara stood up, took the
directions to the shelter from Giles.
"Well, we can go then.
Xander, Anya, you want a ride back to your apartment?"
They both stood and followed
Tara and Amy out.
Willow looked over at
Buffy. "I'll be right back. I just want to help Tara enchant the
car. Well and to say goodbye." She grinned.
"No problem." As she watched her friend walk out to join
the others, Buffy sighed. The house
seemed very quiet and close with everyone gone.
Giles moved close. "Everything all right?"
"Sure," she tried
to fake a smile, knew she failed.
"What could be wrong?"
"It will get
easier. And soon you'll be able to come
and go as you please." His hand
fell gently on her shoulder.
She reached up and placed her
own hand over it for a moment. "It
all feels so strange." She walked
away from him, began to pick things up aimlessly from the tables, stopped when
she came to the photo of Joyce with Dawn and her. She touched the glass softly, tracing the
outline of her mother's face.
"I miss her too,"
Giles voice was soft. "She was an
extraordinarily good woman."
"People lose their
mothers everyday. How come they don't
tell you it will be this hard when it happens to you?" She fought back tears.
"I don't know," he
said. "I suspect even if they told
you, you wouldn't believe them."
"I never knew anything
could hurt this much."
She fought the sadness for a
moment, tried to be strong. It was too
hard. "God I miss her,
Giles."
"I know," he said,
his voice a bit ragged. "I know you
do."
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Tara drove carefully, not
wanting to attract any attention. Amy
stared out the window.
"You want some
music?"
"No, that's
ok."
A few more miles passed in
silence.
"You ok?"
"Uh huh." Amy's response lacked any real conviction.
"You don't seem
it." Tara glanced over at the other
witch. "You purple?"
"What?"
Tara giggled. "Just checking to make sure you were
paying attention." She glanced at
Amy again to see the reaction.
Amy smiled. "I'm sorry. I'm just really caught up in all that's
happened. I'm trying to make sense of
it. Little things like who everybody is
and what happened to things. It's
confusing."
"I imagine it is."
"Like you for
instance. I remember what I saw as a
rat, so I know that you and Willow are involved and all. But where did you come from?"
"Hell," Tara
replied bitterly.
"Yeah? Wow."
"You really are a
Sunnydale native." Tara
laughed. "No, not real hell. But my family, well everyone but my mom, they
were pretty hard on me when I was growing up."
Amy stretched. "I'm just the opposite. It was my mom who made my life a living
hell. She was a witch too."
"Yeah, so was mine. Only maybe with a different outlook."
"She didn't switch
bodies with you so she could relive her youth, did she?"
"Nope," Tara
confirmed.
"Definitely
different."
"Where's your mom
now?"
"Tartarus, I hope,"
Amy sneered. "What about your
mom?"
"She died. When I was seventeen."
"I'm sorry. How did it happen?"
"My dad said she
fell. Said it was an accident. But he lied about some other
things." Tara remembered how she
used to fear that she would become a demon.
"And he had a really bad temper.
In public he was all upstanding but when he got mad, he'd whale on
us."
"So you think he killed
her?"
Tara shrugged. "Wouldn't put it past him."
"But you got away."
Amy observed.
"Yeah. I did."
Tara smiled tightly. "They
can't hurt me anymore."
"So did your mom teach
you witchcraft?"
"Some little
things. Most of it though I learned on
my own." Tara saw the exit that
Giles had told her to take. She moved
off the freeway and into LA proper.
"I taught myself
too." Amy trailed off as she stared
out the window. "Wow. LA looks so big."
"I imagine everything
looks big after living in a cage for as long as you have."
"It wasn't a bad
cage. You could have changed the bedding
more often though," Amy was only half teasing.
"Sorry. I'll remember that for the replacement
rat."
Amy didn't say anything.
"You scared?"
"I am. I've never really been on my own, not even to
camp."
Tara pulled over across the
street from the shelter. "Angel
said to look for Anne. She's tall,
blonde, runs the shelter. Introduce
yourself as Jane Smith and Anne will explain the plan."
Amy sat unmoving.
Tara leaned over, touched the
other girl's shoulder. "Your dad
really needs you back, Amy. This is the
first step. Anne will look out for
you."
"Ok. I'm going." Amy took a deep breath. She waited till some teenagers had walked
into the shelter, then got out of the car and hurried across the street to the
shelter door. She turned to look at the
car, frowned for a moment.
Tara realized that Amy was
seeing the glamour they'd put on it.
Tara would appear as an old man, and Xander's car would seem to be a
large sedan. She smiled and waved, saw
Amy wave back then walk inside.
Tara let out the breath she'd
been holding. They were asking so much
of Amy. It was necessary but Tara
couldn't help but feel for the other girl.
It was really hard to live a lie.
Tara pulled the car away from
the curb, eased into the light traffic.
She needed to get a rat. It was a
cinch there weren't any pet stores open this early in the morning. But that was ok. She could probably get a rat at her next
stop. Tara smiled happily.
She drove for a few minutes,
then parked in front of a warehouse in one of LA's seedier districts.
A young man came out of the
shadows. His wary look eased when he saw
her. "Hey Tara, check you out. All grown up now and quite the woman."
She laughed. "These things do happen."
"So they do. And I like, I like. You got a honey back at college or could I
apply?" he teased as he walked her to a door.
"I'm spoken for,
Colin."
He laughed good-naturedly and
clutched at his heart. When her resolve
didn't falter, he shrugged and keyed in a code to an access box on the
wall. The door opened soundlessly.
"She'll be really glad
to see you, Tara. It's been a long
time."
"It's not like I don't
call every week," she shot back gently.
As she walked into the building, witch light sprang up ahead of her,
showing the way to the stairs and down to the living area.
She opened the door slowly,
saw several heads turn. They waved
lazily but otherwise ignored her. She
walked down the hall, stopped when she came to the right door. She knocked softly, a smile already forming
on her face.
The door opened quickly. The face that looked out was snake-like for a
moment, then transformed into an older woman.
"Tara!"
Tara was pulled into a
hug. "Mom. You don't have to go all human on my
account."
Her mother held her at arm's
length, inspecting Tara's face. Her face
relaxed back into the reptilian features it had worn when she opened the
door. "You look tired. And your energy is all off," she chided,
pulling her daughter into the room.
"Your father's not making trouble for you again is he?"
"No. We've been busy. We resurrected Buffy. Willow found the spell," Tara said
proudly.
Her mother smiled. "Willow sounds like an exceptional young
woman."
Tara looked down. "I wish you could meet her
someday."
Her mother's hand brushed
Tara's hair. "You know that won't
happen, darling. I'm supposed to be
dead. And how would she like seeing me
like this? She thinks you're human, Tara. And for all practical purposes you are or
you'd look like I do now. But just
because she accepts that you might have been a demon, doesn't mean that she'll
accept that your mother is one."
"I think you're wrong,
Mom. Not everyone is like Dad."
"But enough people are,
my dear, that it frightens me. When I
think of the state you were in when I finally got you away from him. I'd do anything to prevent that from
happening again."
"It's ok, Mom. I'm not going to tell anyone. I've kept your secret for two years now. No one is going to find out. Especially not him. He doesn't even suspect that you are still
alive. He still thinks I just ran
away." Tara felt terrible memories
surrounding her, she whispered, "As if I ever would have back then."
"You're a different
person now. Strong and capable. He can't hurt you anymore. Let's not waste our breath talking about him,
hmm. We have hardly any time as it
is," she led Tara to a couch.
"How long can you stay?"
"Till nine. Maybe later if you can manifest a rat for
me."
"For breakfast?"
her mother looked worried.
"For a pet," she
giggled.
Her mother was relieved. "Of course I can. What color?"
"Brown."
Tara's mother closed her eyes
and muttered in a language Tara had only recently relearned. "Ketlblm rdzachk portlmb."
A brown rat appeared on the
couch between them. It promptly climbed
into Tara's lap and fell asleep.
"Cool," she said,
awed as always by her mother's power.
"You should be able to
do this too. I think whatever kept you
human also makes it harder for you to do magic." She touched her daughter's forehead, closed
her eyes for a moment, then smiled.
"But you're much stronger than last time, must be Willow's
influence."
Tara smiled happily.
Her mother laughed. "Alright I want to know what's happened
since the last time you called."
Tara relaxed as she caught
her mother up on everything.
---------------------------------
"So Spike," Faith
said as she punched the ugly vampire that was threatening her, "What's the
story with you and Amy?"
"Not much to tell,"
he replied as he dusted his own opponent then tossed Faith the stake.
"Uh huh," Faith
said as she stabbed viciously at the vampire.
His face turned to shock but she was already walking away before he
exploded into ash.
"Sure looked like
something from where we were standing," Dawn chimed in, flipping a huge
male off her back and following him down with the stake. He was dust.
Faith looked around,
surveying the area. There were no more
vampires to be fought. She felt the
normal hunger and horniness start to rise.
She focused on the latter feeling, told it to hold off till she was
alone with Giles again. He seemed to
enjoy the enthusiasm she brought home with her.
She grinned.
"Don't want to even ask
what you're thinking of," Spike chuckled.
She gave him an amused
look. He seemed to generally have a
pretty good idea of what she was thinking.
"I'm hungry," Dawn
complained.
Faith nodded. "Me too.
Let's go grab something."
They walked across the street
to the all-night convenience store. Faith
warmed up a burrito while Dawn eyed the ice cream bars. Spike stayed outside. Mostly to avoid the shoplifter mirrors, of
which there were many. The clerk tended
to watch them all nervously whenever Faith came in. He remembered her from the last time she
lived in Sunnydale. So I didn't always
choose to pay for what I ate, she thought in amusement. No reason to get all bent.
She knew it was wrong but she
couldn't help it. Making sure he was
still watching, she stuck a lighter into her pocket. She saw his eyes widen. Yeah right, sucker, she thought.
"You ready there,
squirt? We've got lots more to do
tonight."
Dawn made her choice and
hurried to join her.
Faith walked slowly up to the
cashier, making sure her hips moved as seductively as she could make them. She put down the burrito, pointed to Dawn's
ice cream, and said cockily, "And a pack of those," pointing over to
the brand Spike usually smoked. The
clerk tried to hide a smile as he pulled down the pack.
He was ringing it up and had
almost hit total when she said, "Oh yeah, and this too." She pulled the lighter out of her pocket and
tossed it on the counter. She almost
laughed at his look of disappointment.
She leaned in close, made her voice a delicate hiss. "I don't steal anymore so you can
relax. But if I did steal, there's no
way I'd let you catch me doing it."
He swallowed audibly.
She backed away and handed
him the money.
He counted back her change
uneasily.
With a sweet smile she put a
dollar into the "Save the Children" box. She looked over at the clerk. "Now this is a good cause. You save them as kids, they don't grow up to
be like me."
He nodded, then stopped as if
wondering whether that had been a good idea.
"You have a good night
now," Faith said breezily as she gathered up her stuff and walked out.
"Was that really
necessary?" Dawn asked as she followed her out, already unwrapping her ice
cream.
"Yep."
"Whatever."
Spike was drinking from a
thermos when they joined him. He took
the cigarettes, looked askance at the lighter.
"The one I have is still good.
Was this on special or something?"
"Don't ask," Dawn
instructed.
"Just setting something
to rights is all," Faith said as she handed Spike back his change. For once she didn't feel so bad about
sponging off the others. "Hey,
Giles heard from the Council today.
They're freeing up my funds next week."
"So I can teach you how
to use an ATM?" Dawn asked excitedly.
"Hell, I know how to use
one. I've just never done it with my own
card before." Faith smirked.
Spike burst out
laughing. "Ah the nostalgia of the
bad old days."
They shared a look.
"Not fair," Dawn
said. "I don't have a bad past so I
can't be in the club."
"Well now," Spike
tried to cheer her up. "You don't
know that for sure. Those knights seemed
pretty set on killing you. So maybe as
the key you were used for all kinds of horrible things."
Dawn seemed pleased at the
thought. "And now I'm good. Cool.
I'm one of the reformed gang now."
Faith shook her head and
smiled over at Spike.
He grinned back. "So if you're coming into all this
money, can I expect some rather large blood deliveries courtesy of you?"
"Yeah, yeah." She turned to Dawn. "And I owe you like a hundred by
now. Don't worry, I'll pay."
"I know you will,"
Dawn smiled at her fondly. "I'm
just glad you'll have your own funds. No
more worrying."
"And lots more
shopping. There's this wicked cool
leather coat I've been eyeing."
"Can't go wrong with
leather," Spike agreed.
"Yeah, until a big ugly
vampire wrecks it, that is." Dawn
turned to her watcher. "So you
never answered the question about Amy."
"No. I didn't." His tone was clear. He didn't want to talk about this.
Dawn didn't care. "So you think you could like her?"
He sighed. "Why is this so important to you?"
"I want you to be
happy. Amy might make you happy. And she's a witch and all so she's not just a
normal person."
Faith saw his face
tighten. "Kiddo, he's not in love
with Amy."
He looked away.
Dawn wouldn't let up. "Well you just met her. How will you know unless you give it a
chance? She sure seems to dig you."
Faith saw Spike's fists
clench. "Leave him alone,
Dawn. This isn't our business."
"He's my watcher. And he's in love with my sister. And she's not in love with him. And I'm caught in the middle. So how is that not my business?"
Faith shot her a warning
look. "It just isn't, ok."
Dawn looked at Spike, saw
something in his face that made her shrug in resignation. "Fine.
Whatever." She threw her ice
cream stick away and walked away from them.
Spike looked at Faith. "Thanks."
"For what it's worth, I
agree with Dawn." She threw away
the burrito wrapper and went after the other slayer. It was a few minutes before a subdued Spike
caught up with them.
---------------------------------
Willow sat up in bed with a
start. "Tara?"
The room was empty. And too quiet without the sound of her
lover's breathing. Willow even missed
the sound of Amy rustling in her cage.
She glanced at the alarm clock.
It was still very early. Tara was
probably on her way back. Except no, she
had said she was going to pick up a new rat, Willow thought in confusion. She frowned.
Where had Tara been planning to stay in between dropping Amy off and
waiting for the pet stores to open?
There were hours to go yet. Willow's
frown deepened. Why hadn't this occurred
to her before? Even now she was having a
hard time thinking about it.
She got out of bed and found
the crystal ball that Giles had given Tara for her birthday. Bringing it back to the bed she sat and
slowly cleared her thoughts of everything but her girlfriend. Willow stared at the ball, but it stayed
perfectly clear, just as it always did.
Damn thing never worked for her.
She was about to give up when
she remembered the feeling that has startled her out of sleep. That Tara needed her. She concentrated on the emotions she had
felt. Suddenly a mist began to swirl
inside the ball. When it cleared, Willow
could see and hear Tara and--Willow gasped in dismay--a demon. She was about to panic when she realized that
Tara didn't appear to be in any distress.
But it was too late. Her lack of
concentration caused the picture to wink out.
Damn it, she cursed, as she
tried to get the image back. But the
ball was not cooperating. She tried to
relax, used centering techniques to slow her breathing, still her mind. She thought of Tara and the demon. "Show me how this came to be," she
whispered.
The glass again filled with
mist. Suddenly she was in another place
and a little girl that she barely recognized as Tara was giggling with
delight. She sat on the lap of a woman
that Willow recognized as Tara's mother from the photo her lover kept on her
bedside table.
"Your name means
star," the woman said as she hugged Tara to her. "My little star."
A younger version of Mr.
Maclay stood at the door. "Don't
fill her head with your nonsense, Laurel."
"Astaroth," whispered
the mother. "Astarte."
A little whirlwind of bright
lights began to spin in front of them.
Tara reached out.
"Stars."
"Laurel," his voice
warned her.
Her face transformed into a
snake. "Ishtar," she hissed to
her daughter.
Tara looked up, squealed in
delight. "Ishtar. Star.
Tara."
The lights brightened.
Her father strode toward them
angrily. "That's enough of
that." He grabbed his wife, spun
her to face him. The lights went out.
She smiled sweetly. Her face was human again.
"Don't try your damn
tricks with me. I know what you're
hiding underneath that pretty face. And I've told you before there'll be no
witchcraft in this house." He backhanded
the woman viciously.
Tara fell off her mother's
lap and screamed.
Willow jumped at the
sound. The picture in the ball began to
dim. Quickly, she refocused. "Show me more," she whispered.
The ball lit up again. The Tara that faced her now was much
older. She was coming home from school,
trying to outrun the taunts of her brother and cousin.
"Something not quite
right with her." Donny threw a clod
of dirt at his sister. "She's gonna
grow up as touched in the head as her mother."
Tara covered her ears.
"If my mom hadn't died
when I was born, Dad would never have married your mom. He only picked her cuz he thought I needed a
woman to help me grow up right."
Beth laughed. "Big mistake on his part. Should have picked a good woman, not some
sick witch like your mom."
Tara turned around. "Shut up, she's b-b-better than both of
you put together." She ran away
from them. Finally she stopped,
breathing hard and trying not to cry.
"Tara," Willow
called to her. "Tara, it'll be all
right."
But it only got worse that
night at dinner. Mr. Maclay had been
drinking steadily and at the end of the meal he pulled out an envelope. "You want to tell me what this is,
Tara?"
Her mother looked happy. "Is that...?"
"I'm asking the
girl." He scowled at his
daughter. "Well, spit it out."
"It's t-t-test
scores."
Donny mimicked her. "You th-th-think?"
"Stop it," Laurel
Maclay said.
"I'll thank you to not
talk to my boy with that tone," Tara's father looked over at his wife
angrily. Then he looked at his son. "You're excused. Go do your chores before it gets too dark to
see."
"Yes, sir," Donny
mumbled and went outside.
"He only makes it
worse." Tara's mother walked over
to the table. "Let me see how she
did."
"I told her not to take
the test. Wasn't any point seeing as how
she won't be going to college any time soon."
"She could go. She's smart as a whip and she's got excellent
grades."
He looked over at Tara. Then he smiled cruelly and threw the envelope
into the fire behind him. "I said
she's not going. What part of that don't
you two understand?"
"No!" Tara screamed
and ran to the fire. She reached into
the flames and tried to grab the envelope.
"Leave it alone,
Tara." Her father stood unsteadily
and grabbed her by the hair, yanking her away from the flames.
She fell hard then struggled
to get up. She held her burnt hands away
from her body and tried to stand. In a
rage now, Mr. Maclay hit her hard. When
she slumped to the ground, she didn't get up again.
"Tara," Willow
whispered.
"And you call me a
monster," Tara's mother had transformed into the serpent. "You'll never touch her again."
And she came at him. Mr. Maclay tripped over Tara and went down
hard. He reached out blindly and his
hand touched the poker. He yanked it free
from the hanger and jabbed at his wife savagely.
She dodged it. "No, by Ishtar and Astarte, you won't
hurt her again." She rose up and
advanced on him. It wasn't clear what
she intended, and Willow doubted that the woman even knew how to fight because
Mr. Maclay got away from her easily. She
began a spell and he reacted, jerking back in fear.
"Stop that!"
She kept talking. In the corner of the room there was a hissing
sound.
"I said stop
it!" He struck out at her with the
poker, hitting her hard in the head. She
fell heavily and lay still on the floor.
Blood seeped from the wound on her head.
As her breathing slowed, her face transformed back to human. The hissing noises stopped.
He looked around. Tara was still unconscious. He replaced the poker then pulled his wife's
body up to the fireplace and let her drop onto the poker. Her body fell awkwardly to the ground.
He felt for a pulse. Then he backed up and began to scream,
"Laurel!"
Donny came running. "What happened?" He saw his stepmother and stopped.
Willow watched as Mr. Maclay
seemed to collapse, pretending to a grief that could not be real. She was sickened as she heard him say,
"Tara fell into the fire. Laurel
went to help her, lost her balance. Then
she hit her head."
"It was an accident
then," Donny did not make it a question.
"An accident," his
father agreed.
Tara woke up then. She saw her mother and screamed. "Mom!'
She crawled to her, clearly in pain as she used her ruined hands. "Mom, no."
Donny moved to pull her off,
but their father stopped him.
"Leave her be for now. Best
call the sheriff."
As his son went to the phone,
Mr. Maclay crouched down next to his daughter.
"You want her remembered well and not as the demon witch she
was? Then you tell the sheriff when he
comes that your burning your hands like that was an accident. You were clumsy and fell into the fire. You passed out from the pain. You don't remember anything after that. You got that, girl?"
She sobbed. "Y-y-yes, Sir."
"Good."
Willow sat appalled. "Oh god, Tara," she whispered. "If I'd known what you'd been
through."
The ball sped through the
burial. A preacher said the normal
things. Tara stood in shock. Her cousin Beth held her as if they were
friends. Tara didn't try to get away.
Later Willow saw Tara, hands
bandaged, clumsily going through her mother's things. Up in the attic, she found a small chest full
of crystals, incenses, and oils. She
stashed them away in her room.
During the days that followed,
Tara tried to keep out of everyone's way.
She did whatever they told her to.
All the life was gone from her.
At night, she'd creep out to the woods and weep.
"Tara," Willow
tried to console her. Her heart was
breaking for her lover.
Tara's father became
increasingly vicious to her. He seemed
to need no reason to belittle her. Her
self confidence plummeted even more as he mocked her. She was allowed to go to school and church
but nowhere else. The small house she
had been born in became her world. And
on those days that her dad had been drinking it became a violent world. She often had black eyes when she went to
school. The teachers never said
anything.
One night her father came
into her room and found her holding a crystal.
"Where the hell did you get that?" He tried to snatch it out of her hand.
"L-L-Leave it
alone," the girl managed to stutter.
"It's hers," he
snarled as he closed his fist and prepared to strike.
"Fog cover all,"
Tara whispered desperately. A sudden
dense mist hid her from her father. She
grabbed the crystal and climbed out the window running desperately for the
woods. She hid there for two days. Finally, afraid of the outside world more
than what waited for her, she returned to the house.
"No," whispered
Willow. "Don't go back to
him."
Tara slunk into the house,
the crystal hidden in her pocket. Her
father turned to look at her.
Willow recognized fear in his
eyes as he said, "I ever catch you doing that devil stuff in my house
again, I'll tan your hide. You
understand me, girl?"
"Yes, sir," she
stammered.
"Get to work."
Willow realized that things
were different after that. Mr. Maclay
never hit his daughter again. He almost
acted as if she didn't exist. But Tara
never seemed to understand that she had the power from that moment on. The frightened child only saw the man she had
always feared.
The ball ran quickly through
the next few months. Willow watched as
Tara graduated with honors. Her family
sat in the audience, none of them looking particularly proud of her. The ball forwarded a few days then it stopped
to show Tara cleaning the bathroom. The
mirror above the sink suddenly fogged.
Tara stared at it in wonder.
Writing appeared, "Come to the woods." The writing disappeared.
Tara reached up and wrote,
"Why?"
"If you want to be free,
come to the woods tonight. While the
rest sleep." The mirror cleared.
"Who are you?" Tara
whispered. But there was no answer. She stared at the mirror for a long time
before she finished the cleaning.
That night, Tara looked
around her room. She pulled out the
treasures she had rescued from the attic and hid them in her book bag. She found some jewelry that had been her mother's
and stuck that in there too. She added
her diploma and grades, then grabbed her coat and snuck out of the house.
She walked to the edge of the
woods, wondering which way to go.
Suddenly a road of stars opened up in front of her. Tara started to breathe heavily and her eyes
filled with tears. "Little
Star," she said as she stepped onto the path.
The path wound around the
trees, leading her deeper into the woods.
She had never been this far into the forest. Suddenly she heard a sound. She stopped in shock. A tear fell slipped down her cheek. "Mom?"
"Astaroth," a voice
hissed back. "Come to me, my little
star."
Tara ran the rest of the
way. She threw herself into her mother's
arms, sobbing wildly. They sank down to
the ground, her mother holding her while she wept out her pain. "Shhh, my love," she comforted
her. "Shhh. I'm right here."
Willow watched as they held
each other. She was amazed at the sight of Tara' mother. The woman fairly pulsed with power.
"But how?" Tara looked up, joy suffusing her face. "You were dead."
"No. I was close to dead. But I got better."
"But you were in the
ground. I saw them put you there."
Her mother nodded, held up
her hands. Most of her fingernails had
been torn off and were halfway grown back.
"Death shall not keep me."
Tara repeated the
ritual. "The underworld shall not
hold me." She laughed.
"We're getting out of
here." Her mother hugged her
tightly to her, then stood up and pulled Tara to her feet. She cast some sort of spell back at the
house, and then they both winked out and appeared in Sunnydale.
"Why here?" Tara
asked.
"I'm not sure. I asked to go where you could find happiness
and the spell took us here. At least
it's close to where I've been living."
She smiled. "Oh Tara, I
can't tell you how wonderful it is to live with others of my kind. They found me when I was weak and just free
of the coffin. They heard my cries and
came for me. They put the ground back to
rights so your father would never suspect and took me back to LA with
them."
"You're
happy." Tara touched her mother's
face in wonder. "I've never seen
you really happy."
"We'll both be happy
now, dearest."
Willow watched as they got a
room at the same motel Faith had made her home when she first arrived in
Sunnydale. They slept the night away,
Tara's mother curled protectively around her daughter.
The next day they wandered
the town, finally coming to the university campus.
"I think this is where
you are supposed to be." Tara's
mother reached into her bag and handed Tara some papers. "I took the liberty of getting
replacements for you."
Tara looked at the
documents. They were her test
scores. "Did I really do this
well?"
"I only used magic to
get them, not to change the results. You
did that all yourself. I told you, Tara,
you're an incredibly smart young woman."
She took her daughter's hand.
"Let's see if we can get you enrolled?"
Tara nodded happily. She followed her mother into the admissions
building, went alone to the counter to get her forms. Then they found a secluded spot and her
mother spelled them back to the LA warehouse that was her home. In between shopping for clothes and other
things she needed, Tara filled the applications out and sent them in. Then she spent time alone with her mother and
with the others at the warehouse, all of them demons like Tara's mom. In the presence of humans, they looked
perfectly ordinary. But in the basement
of the warehouse they could be what they really were.
Tara settled down quickly at
the warehouse. She studied magic with
her mother and was spoiled by the others as if they were her new aunts and
uncles. They threw her a party the day
she got her acceptance letter to college.
Some of the younger demons moved Tara into the dorms, then drove away
with waves and grins. Tara's mom helped
her set up her room, and as a surprise pulled out the Christmas lights that
they strung over the door.
The ball forwarded through
the rest so fast that Willow could barely make it out, but she recognized some
of the moments she had lived with Tara.
Then the ball slowed and Willow saw Amy going into the shelter and Tara
driving off to the warehouse to see her mother.
Willow smiled at the warmth she saw between the two women when they
greeted each other. Willow had never
once experienced a moment like that with her own mother.
"Why didn't you tell
me," Willow asked the image of Tara.
Its only response was to fade out.
"Why didn't you trust me?"
She heard a sound on the
stairs, looked at the clock, realized she'd been reliving Tara's life for
hours.
The door opened and Tara came
in, cradling a rat.
"No cage, huh?"
Tara shrugged. "We already had one. Besides, she's really friendly. I think she must have been someone's pet
already. She slept in my lap the whole
way back."
"What did you do in
between?" Willow asked as she watched Tara put the rat into Amy's old
cage.
Tara ignored the
question. "We need to change the
bedding more often. I guess Amy found it
unpleasant."
"Ok." Willow tried another tact. "Did you see Angel?"
Tara looked at her,
"No."
"Then what did you do in
LA all this time?"
Tara smiled. "Oh, I found this great diner. You know the kind that is open all night and
serves bad coffee and really greasy eggs."
Willow said softly,
"Don't. Don't lie."
Tara was confused. "Well maybe the eggs weren't all that
greasy but the coffee was definitely not Starbucks."
Willow picked up the crystal
ball. Saw Tara blanche. "I know.
I saw you and your mom."
Tara stood mute. There was fear in her eyes.
Willow walked to her, took
her in her arms. "Don't you know
you can tell me anything? I love
you. I love you with a wacked out
father. And I love you with a demon
mother. I'd even still love you if you
had become a demon."
Tara sobbed.
Willow held her tighter. "Don't ever lie to me like that."
"I told her you'd say
that. That you'd understand. But she's not used to people like you. She made me promise when she brought me here
that I'd never tell anyone that she was alive, or about her secret. But I wanted to tell you, Willow. I wanted to so much. I can't stand that this has been between
us. I hated sneaking around just to call
her."
"Well now you don't have
to." Willow looked at her
sternly. "But it hurts that you
didn't trust me with this, Tara."
"I know."
"And next time you call
her, I want to say hello."
Tara gulped. "Ok."
Willow shook her finger at
her. "I mean it."
Her lover nodded
quickly. "I know." Then she smiled. "You two are a lot alike. I think you'll like each other."
"Of course we
will," Willow agreed as the pulled Tara down to the bed. "But right now I'm still feeling a
little hurt."
Tara smiled. "Is it something I can kiss and make
better?"
Willow grinned as she replied
softly. "Oh, I definitely think
so."
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Dawn was making toast when
she heard footsteps coming down the stairs.
Without turning she said, "Don't even think about touching that
orange juice."
She spun and saw her sister
stop mid-reach, a silly grin on her face.
"Used to be me saying
that," Buffy laughed.
"Things
change." Dawn kept an eagle eye on
the glass.
"Everything except
orange juice," Buffy countered, as she poured herself a glass.
"So you admit some
people might have changed?"
Buffy sighed. "It's too early for a philosophical
discussion, Dawn."
"I guess." The younger girl held up the bread. "You want toast?"
"Yeah. Thanks."
"No bigs. I'm up."
Dawn handed Buffy the jam, after liberally smearing her own toast. She studied Buffy, her sister looked calmer,
more like herself. But she also looked
bored. "So whatcha gonna do today?"
The older slayer pretended to
ponder the question. "First I'm
going to discover a cure for the common cold.
Then I'm going to negotiate peace in the Middle East."
Dawn giggled.
"Seriously. I'm going to sit on my butt while we all
think of an explanation for me being back."
"Sounds pretty
dull."
"Tell me about
it." Buffy sighed.
Dawn handed her sister the
toast, then put her dishes in the sink.
"If I didn't have to go to school, I could stay home and we could
train."
"You're going to school,
Dawn."
Dawn pouted, but she'd known
what her sister would say. She headed
out of the kitchen. "Well I better
get ready then."
"Where's all of Mom's
stuff?"
Dawn stopped. "Her stuff?"
"Yeah. You know, all the stuff from her room?"
Dawn turned. "When Willow and Tara moved in, we
pretty much just cleared it all out. But
I didn't have the heart to go through it, so it's all down in boxes in the
basement."
"So you didn't throw
anything away?"
"I gave some of her
books to the library but other than that it's all downstairs."
"Maybe I'll go through
it," Buffy proposed.
"Do you think that's a
good idea? I mean so soon after you're
back?"
Buffy gave a bitter
laugh. "Afraid I'll go all psycho
again, Dawnie?"
"I didn't say that. I just mean...it's sad is all. Like we're really saying goodbye. That's why I couldn't do it."
Buffy walked over, brushed
her sister's hair back. "You don't
even have tears in your eyes."
Dawn pulled away
angrily. "You think I haven't
cried? That's all I did was cry. For mom, for you. I cried more than I ever knew a person
could."
Buffy reached out for her,
"Dawn, I didn't mean..."
She pulled away from her
older sister's touch. "I don't care
what you meant. Don't you dare judge
me."
"I'm not judging
you." Buffy turned away. "I'm sorry. I keep expecting you to still be a little
girl. But you're not. You're all grown up now." Her voice was very small.
Dawn frowned. "That doesn't mean I don't still need
you. You're the only sister I
have."
Buffy gave a derisive
sniff. "What's Faith then?"
"Faith isn't my
sister. You know that." Dawn saw Buffy sneer. Felt irritation grow inside her. Decided to strike back. "She's my friend."
The words hit home. Buffy threw away the rest of her toast. "Right."
"Buffy." Dawn felt guilty. "If you want help with Mom's stuff, save
it for tonight. We can both go through
it."
Buffy's look softened. "No.
I should do it. I think it might
help me say goodbye."
"You sure?"
Her sister nodded
firmly. "I'm positive. Now go get ready for school."
Dawn mock saluted. "Yes, Frau Commandant!"
Buffy rolled her eyes.
Dawn laughed and hurried out
to change.
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Buffy sat in the living room,
waiting for Dawn to leave for school.
The house was quiet with Willow asleep and Tara not back from LA. And Spike in the basement. She grimaced at the thought of dealing with
him while she went through her mother's things.
Maybe she should have staked him after all.
Dawn came clomping down the
stairs, all in black except for a dark pink top that looked very familiar.
"Is that my
sweater?"
Dawn stuck her lip out a
bit. "Maybe." At her sister's look she fidgeted. "Yes."
"Did I say you could
wear it?"
"No, but if you make me
change now I'll be late."
Buffy sighed in
resignation. "Next time ask
first."
"Ok. Thanks."
Dawn gave her a quick kiss and was gone.
Buffy sat for a few more
minutes, then stood up and headed downstairs.
The basement was lit by one dim lamp on Spike's bedside table. The vampire looked as if he had fallen asleep
while reading. His head lay on top of an
old volume and his hands still curled on the open pages. Buffy didn't want to admit that it made him
look more human, or that she found the sight slightly charming.
She turned away; saw the
boxes piled up at the other end of the basement. Turning on a brighter light, she lifted the
top one down, pulled it open.
It was full of her mother's
shoes. She drew a pair of heels out,
recognized them as the pumps her mom had worn whenever she had an important
business meeting. She touched the navy
leather gently, then stuck the shoe back in the box, which she closed and
pushed off to the side. Her mother's
shoes were too big for her or for Dawn.
They would go to charity.
The next box was more
shoes. It joined the other. She pulled down another carton, opened it to
find a mess of fabric. She felt herself
getting angry as she tried to flatten out the creased in the clothing. She muttered, "God, Dawn, you could have
folded it at least."
Spike's soft voice came from
behind her, causing her to jump slightly.
"She could barely see through the tears. Just wanted to get the room clean for the
witches. Bloody lucky she got things in
the boxes at all."
He knelt down next to Buffy,
pulled out a sweater. "Joyce was
wearing this one night when I came over for hot chocolate. You and your boy were out."
"Go away, Spike."
"Why? Looks to me like you could use some
help."
"Not from you," she
fairly hissed. "Go upstairs or
something."
"Don't want to."
"I'm working down
here."
He sneered. "And I'm living down here."
She watched him as he got up
and lit a cigarette. "No smoking in
the house."
He laughed. "No smoking in the house except for down
here."
"I don't want you
watching me do this."
"Then do it somewhere
else. I'm staying."
She sighed in frustration and
turned back to the boxes.
"Maybe if you'd been
nicer to me," she heard him taunt.
"Oh shut up," she
said as quietly as she could.
He still heard her. "Free country, Summers."
She couldn't stand it
anymore. Rising quickly she hurried to
the door. "Forget it. I'll do it while you and Dawn and the psycho
slayer are on patrol."
His voice was gentle. "Buffy, did it ever occur to you that I
might want to help because I cared for Joyce?
And I care for you."
She didn't move, wanted to
yell at him, curse him, kill him even.
She could hear him walk over
to the box. "Bet that some of this
stuff has a story?"
She turned to watch him.
"Bet you'd be the better
for it if you told me some of those stories."
She stood undecided.
He shook out a sheer black
blouse. "This is fancy."
Buffy saw her mother in the
shirt, smiling happily, rushing to the door.
"She wore it on one of her dates with Ted."
"Don't remember
him."
Buffy sighed. "He was a robot."
Spike looked at the shirt
with new appreciation. "Way to go,
Joyce."
Buffy walked to him, grabbed
the blouse away. "It wasn't like
that," she said firmly as she folded the shirt up and put it back into the
box.
"Well tell me what it
was like." He looked at her
speculatively.
"He was a psychopathic
serial killer."
"Oh. You mean like me, do you?"
She thought about that. "No he was worse. He was nice.
At first anyway."
"But you stopped him
before he could hurt your mum?"
"Barely," she whispered.
"But you did." He lifted up an oversize light blue
sweatshirt. "What do you remember
about this?"
She grabbed it. "That it's mine. From like senior year in high school. I looked everywhere for this. I can't believe she had it all this time." She placed it on the floor behind her.
"Maybe it reminded her
of you when you went away to school?"
"Maybe," she
agreed. "Oh," she said in
wonder as she pulled out a worn gray flannel top. "When my Mom and Dad were first married,
before I came along, they used to buy one pair of pajamas. He'd wear the bottoms and she'd take the
top. This was part of the first pair
they ever bought together."
Spike didn't look overly
impressed.
"You don't think that's
romantic?"
"Sharing pajamas? No, not really. But then I don't wear any so the point's
pretty much lost on me."
"I really did not need
to know that."
He grinned.
"You're
disgusting." She put the pajama
shirt with the sweatshirt.
"You're keeping
that?" he asked incredulously.
"Yes." She glared at him.
"Suit
yourself." He held up several other
items of clothing.
She shook her head. "Those are just work clothes, all of
these are." She helped him fold
them back into the box.
They worked though most of
the boxes, and Buffy found it increasingly easy to tell him the memories behind
some of the clothes. Her pile grew
taller as she added the treasures she wanted to keep.
Spike handed her the next
box. She opened it to find it full of
jewelry boxes.
He smiled. "I made Little Bit take more care
packing this one up. Figured there might
be some stuff that was valuable."
She pulled out a string of
black pearls. "I remember when my
dad gave Mom these. She looked so
happy. And so beautiful." She rubbed at the beads. "They're all dull."
"Wear them against your
skin for a while," he suggested.
"If this is a come
on..."
He laughed. "I'm serious. Pearls need to be next to skin for the oil
and the warmth. Try it, they might come
back."
She thought he sounded pretty
sure so she tried to undo the clasp. It
seemed stuck.
"Let me," he said,
taking it out of her hand. He pinched a
certain way and the clasp came instantly apart.
"See. It's a safety
feature." His eyes met hers. "Lift your hair up."
She didn't argue, just turned
around and did what he said, letting him put the necklace around her neck. To her surprise his hands didn't linger once
he got it fastened.
"Let's have a
look."
She faced him.
"They suit
you." He turned away.
"Thanks." She bent back to the jewelry, started putting
aside everything she wanted or thought Dawn might like in her pile.
He opened a last box and as
he did it broke apart. A small cross
landed on his skin.
"Bloody hell!" He swore as he shook it off his burning
flesh.
Buffy picked it up,
remembered giving it to her mom.
"This was supposed to keep her safe."
Spike was still fussing with
his hand.
She watched him. "How long will it burn?"
He looked up. Saw she really meant it, was curious. "A while. Longer than you'd think."
"What makes it
better?"
"Drinking blood."
She shook her head. "That's your answer for
everything."
"Yeah. That or sex pretty much make the undead life
worth living."
She laughed. "You have a one-track mind."
"At least I'm
consistent."
"Yeah. Consistently annoying, irritating,
infuriating..."
"Fine. I get the
picture." He slid the last box over
to her. It was full of papers and a
strange collection of personal items.
"Dawn took these from
the bedside drawers."
Buffy pulled out a
folder. It was full of pictures. The first one she pulled out was of her mom
and dad the day they had brought her home from the hospital. Her parents looked so young, so in love. So alive.
"There now." Spike eased the folder and the photo out of
her hands.
She looked at him but could
barely see. It took her several moments
to realize she was crying. A harsh,
wounded sob ripped from her. "She's
gone. She's really gone."
She felt his arms go around
her tentatively. "Yes, love. She's really gone."
She fought him for a
moment. Then she gave up and let him
hold her as she tried to stop the tears.
"You don't always have
to be strong, Buffy." His arms
tightened around her. She felt his lips
touch her neck just above the pearls.
"You're getting off on
this," she accused him in a broken voice as she tried to push him away.
"Oh, of course I
am," he agreed as he let go of her and sat back. He reached over and rubbed the pearls into
the tracks that her tears had made down her neck. "Back to the source," he
whispered. "Mother ocean, Buffy's
tears."
She stared at him. His eyes as they met hers were nothing but
kind. She frowned at him.
He only smiled. A strange, sad smile. Then he moved his mouth toward hers.
She saw it coming. Didn't move.
Didn't try to stop him.
Their lips met.
She expected force and
clumsiness. Knew she would feel his
awkward passion and be appalled.
She was wrong. His lips were sweet.
Moments later, he pulled
away. Looked at her in amazement.
"I'll never love
you," she said tonelessly.
"Of course not," he
agreed as he began to gather the items she had selected from Joyce's
things. He turned to her as if nothing
had happened. "You want these in
your room?"
She could only nod.
He stood up, kept
talking. "Tara got home a bit
ago."
Buffy realized she hadn't
heard her come in.
He seemed to be reading her
thoughts. "You were crying. Not surprised you missed it."
Buffy followed him upstairs
to her room.
He dumped the items on her
bed, then strode out.
"Spike."
He stopped.
"Thanks."
He turned to her, gave her a
gentle smile. "My
pleasure." The smile turned
wicked. Then he was gone.
Buffy closed her door, leaned
against it as she repeated, "I'll never love you."
She ran her finger over her
lips once, then shook her head, trying to clear her mind. She had just let Spike kiss her.
Even worse. She had kissed him back.
---------------------------------
Giles was lost in thought as
he drove over to the Summers's residence
"So you going to teach
me to drive this thing?"
"What?" Her question finally registered. "Oh yes, if you like."
She laughed. "Earth to Giles."
"Sorry. I'm a bit distracted." He reached over, felt her take his hand. She rubbed a finger lightly over his palm and
he shivered. "Devil," he
murmured.
She gave a throaty
laugh. "Somehow that never sounds
like a bad thing when you say it that way."
He pulled her hand up to his
lips, kissed it.
"Ummm," she
encouraged him. "I like that train
of thought. Maybe we should turn the car
around and head back home?"
He was tempted by her
proposal but just smiled at her and shook his head.
She didn't seem surprised. "Duty before pleasure, Giles?"
"In this case, I'm
afraid so." He pulled up in front
of the house.
"Think B's in a better
mood today?"
"She won't be for long
if you insist on calling her that. You
know she hates it."
"I know," she
admitted, her tone only mildly contrite.
"I don't like her."
"I know. And I doubt she likes you. But you did agree to a truce?"
"I'm not planning on
fighting her. Jeez, lighten up,
Giles." She reached for the door
handle.
"Faith, I have every
confidence in you. You must know
that."
She turned, studied his
face.
He leaned in and kissed
her. "Every confidence."
She reached for him, pulled
him closer. "You always know
exactly what to do to make it all ok.
How do you do that?"
He smiled, "I'm your watcher."
She shook her head. "Guess again."
"Hmmm. I'm your lover?"
"Right on two. You get the prize."
He grinned as he tightened
his hold, "I've already got it, I think."
"Ok, not to break up
this Red Shoe Diary's moment, but didn't you call us all together to, oh I
don't know, brainstorm? Cuz if I'd known
it was going to be for a big make-out session, we'd have dressed more
appropriately."
Giles and Faith looked up to
see Xander and Anya watching them.
Xander had a huge smirk on his face.
"Oh, like you never do
this," Faith taunted as she got out of the car.
"Well not in a
convertible parked in front of Buffy's front window," Anya replied. "Really, Giles, aren't you a little
old?"
Faith just laughed and took
her watcher's arm as he walked around the car.
"This man is anything but old."
He thought back to their
rather energetic encounter after patrol.
One or two of his muscles were feeling a bit aged. Of course there were other parts that seemed
to feel quite youthful whenever Faith was around. He grinned.
"Oh this is too
gross," Xander teased as he followed them.
"Shut up, Xander,"
Anya whispered a little too loudly.
"If you piss her off now she'll never say yes to being a
bridesmaid."
Giles snickered.
"I'll never say yes
anyway," Faith said under her breath.
"Anya can be a bit dim
when she's fixated on something," he shot back.
"I heard that,"
Anya exclaimed as they climbed the steps and walked into the house.
"Hey guys," Willow
looked up from the couch. Tara waved
hello. Xander and Anya went to talk to
them.
Giles followed Faith into the
kitchen.
Spike was at the counter,
dipping crackers into his blood.
"Well if it isn't the two lovebirds." His smile took any sting out of his words.
"You're in a better mood
than you were earlier. Something
happen?" Faith leaned forward in
interest.
"No," he shrugged,
"Just had a good day."
"What did you do?"
Giles asked suspiciously.
"Not much. Stayed in the basement mostly."
Faith looked at him
skeptically. "Yeah, wicked fun
there, I bet."
Buffy walked into the
kitchen. "Hi."
"B...Buffy," Faith
corrected as Giles glared at her.
"How are you
feeling?" he asked Buffy.
She shrugged. "Ok.
Had a pretty good day."
"Oh? What did you do?" He glanced at Spike who seemed to be watching
the blonde slayer with particular interest.
"And did it happen to be in the basement?"
She was suddenly
evasive. "I don't know. I just did stuff, you know, to forget that I
was stuck in the house."
Dawn walked in on the tail
end of the conversation. 'You went
through Mom's stuff."
"Yeah. That wasn't so fun." Buffy looked down.
Giles studied her. She seemed on edge. But he supposed being housebound and newly
resurrected could account for that.
"You're sure you're all right?"
"Yeah." She looked up at him with hopeful eyes. "But I'll be even better if you tell me
that you thought up a genius plan for explaining my return from the dead. I cannot overstate how much I am looking
forward to leaving this house."
"Let's go into the
living room, shall we?" Giles led
the group into the other room.
Willow looked up gratefully,
then turned to Anya, "Ok, well we'll have to talk about wedding hairstyles
later."
"Yes, but I don't think
you're taking this style seriously," Anya complained. "It's exactly the way Lucrezia Borgia
wore hers at her wedding."
"And you want to look
like a famous poisoner, why?" Tara countered.
"She was really quite
misunderstood. And the hairstyle goes
perfectly with my dress." Anya put
her papers away. "I fail to
understand why you're not more interested.
I thought that's what friends were supposed to do. Listen, help."
"Friend is such a strong
word," Willow replied softly.
"Ow," she exclaimed as Tara elbowed her.
"A strong, good
word. We'll look at your other
hairstyles later, Anya," Tara assured her.
"We will?" Willow dodged another elbow. "We will."
Anya seemed mollified.
"If we are quite
finished with discussions of the nuptials," Giles asked
sarcastically. "We do have Buffy's
future to discuss."
"Don't be so glib,
G-Man," Xander said with a laugh.
"She wants you to wear a kilt to give her away."
"A kilt?" Giles looked horrified. "I'm not even Scottish. Or your father, Anya."
"I know. But that construct I made up that thinks he's
my father is not going to be in this wedding.
He can just go back to his utility and forget it. And you'll like the kilt. It's old.
And you're old. And my dress will
look old. It'll all match."
"I thought we cleared up
that whole old thing," Faith purred from her chair.
"Can we get back to the
topic of me?" Buffy groused.
"By all means,"
Giles agreed.
"So what are we going to
do? How do we explain that a dead woman
is now alive and well?" Xander
looked at the watcher.
Giles walked over to
Buffy. "You're absolutely certain
that you want to resume your old life?
Starting over as a new person is still an option."
"I'm sure," she
replied without hesitation.
He nodded thoughtfully. "Then we have to find a way to make sure
that the body in that grave isn't yours.
That a series of mistakes happened to lead us all, and the police, the
coroner, everyone, to think it was you."
"A major ret con,"
Willow muttered. "But no
spell?"
"No spell," Giles
agreed.
"Then how?" Faith was puzzled. "You want us to muddy up the
picture?"
"No," Buffy
interjected. "He wants the Council
to do it. Don't you, Giles?"
He looked at her. Saw she understood. "They have resources at their disposal
that you can't even imagine. And they
are quite good at this sort of thing."
"Sure they are,"
Dawn agreed bitterly. "After all,
they must have explained away thousands of deaths by now, every time a slayer
died."
"Not every time,"
Faith corrected her. "Sometimes
nobody cares."
Dawn smiled at her
fondly. "Somebody always
cares."
"So the council covered
up the deaths. And inserted the
successors into a new life." Buffy
looked at Giles. "But will they
help us?"
"I don't
know." He met her gaze
frankly. "You've been no end of
trouble to them, you know."
Faith laughed. "Seems to me they have no choice. They help; they've got three slayers. They don't and they've got none."
Buffy turned to her in
surprise.
"It's not a hug moment,
blondie. Just a fact. Dawn won't fight if they screw you
over." The dark haired slayer
grinned. "And hell neither will
I. Don't believe in crossing a picket
line."
"Thanks."
Faith nodded.
"So, I shall start
making some calls." Giles rose.
"And those of use who
aren't temporarily house slayers," Spike smirked at Buffy, "Will go
patrol."
"Knock yourself
out. Literally."
"Real funny," Spike
said, ignoring the fact that Dawn was giggling.
"Shaky on the comeback,
bleach boy," Xander snarked.
"Gonna have to deduct a few tenths there."
"Deduct this." Spike raised two fingers.
Dawn giggled again.
"Go patrol, now,
please." Buffy laughed. "The
rest of us will just stay here where it's warm and safe."
"Now, Buffy," Anya
pounced before the others had left the room.
"What do you think of this hairstyle?"
Giles gratefully fled to the
kitchen to put his plan into action.
FIN
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