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Conference Blues
by
Djinn
Chapel
walked the halls of the luxury hotel hosting the annual Federation medical conference,
also known as an exercise in mind-numbing boredom if you went to the wrong
panel. And most of the panels this
year seemed to be the wrong panels.
Why were all the presenters so damn boring? Was that the only way theyÕd finagled
permission to go to the thing? By
presenting some asinine topic that their captain or superior didnÕt understand?
ÒI
told you weÕd meet up at one of these.Ó
By the smile Len was sporting as he turned her to face him, heÕd found
the bar. ÒSo how is life on the Shalimar, Christine?Ó
ÒNot
as exciting in the personal arena as life aboard the Enterprise, but I like the job very much.Ó She took his arm. ÒI donÕt think thereÕs a single session
I want to go to right now.Ó
He
seemed to be moving them in the general direction of the lobby. ÒNo kidding. Why arenÕt you presenting? You canÕt tell me you arenÕt doing some
interesting stuff.Ó
ÒI
came here to relax, not to worry about talking to a bored crowd.Ó She smiled at him, suddenly very glad to
see him. ÒYou know, IÕve actually
missed you.Ó
ÒWell,
you donÕt need to sound so goddamn surprised about it, Christine. Criminy.Ó
She
laughed.
ÒSo
I take it you havenÕt shacked up with Kelting
and—who is First Officer on your new ship?Ó
ÒThulin? My
taste doesnÕt run to Andorian females, sorry.Ó
ÒSo
you and Kelting...?Ó
ÒAre
you fishing for a reason? Jesus,
Len, let it go. IÕm not involved
with anyone on the ship. I learned
my lesson. Shore leave is for sex.Ó
ÒWords
to live by, darlinÕ. I believe conferences might be, also.Ó
ÒHow
many drinks have you had? I know
you did not just proposition me.Ó
ÒYou
know nothing. And IÕve had
three.Ó He found them a table in
the corner of the bar and motioned a server over.
ÒIs
there a reason weÕre not joining our colleagues?Ó There were several groups of doctors and
scientists scattered around the room.
ÒYes. IÕve missed you, too.Ó He gave her an intense look. ÒIf you would rather join those
colleagues, then get up and IÕll follow you. And I wonÕt say another word about it.Ó
ÒIt being...?Ó
ÒI
think you know.Ó He leaned
back. ÒWhatÕll it be, Christine? Me alone or me with a bunch of fun
people?Ó He made a face. ÒI donÕt think that came out the right
way.Ó
ÒGiven
my history, especially not.Ó She
smiled at him but stood up. ÒYouÕve
had three drinks, and youÕre probably lonely because Spock and Jim are leaving
you out. Just like they did when I
was on the ship.Ó
He
looked down.
ÒI
say we join our colleagues, have a raucous good time, and if you really feel
strongly about this, we can revisit it tomorrow when—or should I say if you stay sober.Ó
ÒIÕm
not drunk. And I have antitox.Ó He
started to reach into his pocket.
ÒSave
it. Keep the buzz. IÕve given you my answer for
tonight.Ó She took his hand and tugged
him over to a group who made room for them. The server followed them and took their
orders.
They
had a raucous good time with a bunch of drunk doctors. But Len shot her the occasional
surprised look, as if heÕd thought this was going to go down the way heÕd
planned it—had he planned this?
When
did he decide they were going to have sex?
Hell, when did he decide he was attracted to her? News to her.
She
wasnÕt going to worry about it.
There was a blonde who seemed very interested in cozying up to him, and
he had put his arm around her.
But
Chapel noticed he did not leave with the pretty blonde, let her say goodnight
with a simple smile and lift of his glass.
ÒShe
was young and attractive. And
interested in you. You off your
game?Ó
ÒGot
other quarry in mind.Ó
She
laughed. Nervously.
He
gave her the smile that always used to annoy her. The knowing and arrogant one. She had to admit, tonight she found it
kind of sexy.
##
Breakfast
was the best part of these conferences.
The buffets were delicious, especially when compared to the rubber
chicken and limp salads that tended to be the lunch or dinner fare. She loaded up on bacon, sausage, eggs
scrambled just right, and home fries, added a strawberry to make it look like
she was at least aware there were healthy options as well, and saw Len at a
table alone.
ÒWant
company?Ó It was the safe thing to
ask: he wasnÕt always a morning
person.
ÒYou,
yes. Anyone else, no.Ó He looked at her plate and started to
laugh. ÒThey starving you on the Shalimar?Ó
ÒShut
up.Ó She saw that he had oatmeal, a
lot of fruit, and some yogurt. ÒBorrrrrrring.Ó
He
nodded as if to say ÒStory of my lifeÓ and she smiled.
As
she sat, he murmured, ÒDo I have to apologize for last night?Ó
ÒNope. I was just...surprised, I guess.Ó
ÒGotta work on your self esteem, woman. Or did those two do a number on it?Ó
ÒLittle
of both maybe.Ó She didnÕt meet his
eyes.
ÒYou
never told me which one of them it was you didnÕt want to share.Ó
ÒI
sure didnÕt, did I?Ó
ÒWhen
I try to figure it out, I can make a case for either.Ó
ÒAre
they happy?Ó
ÒWithout
you, you mean?Ó
She
nodded.
ÒSeem
to be. But who can tell with them? They seemed pretty much the same before
you as with you. I mean before Jim
broke up with him.Ó
ÒHow
much do you know about that?Ó
ÒNot
much. Enough to know Spock went to Gol and Jim gave up the ship. Idiots.Ó
ÒIs
that why you were always looking out for me? You liked me?Ó
He
shook his head, his expression very gentle. ÒI mean, yes I liked you, of
course. As a friend, as a
colleague, as my right hand. But I
only started thinking about more once I saw you were on the attendee list for
this conference.Ó
ÒYeah?Ó
He
nodded, and she couldnÕt see any of the signs that meant he was lying or trying
to bullshit her. ÒI missed you,
too, Christine. So sue me.Ó He grinned but the expression missed the
mark a little bit. ÒYou werenÕt
wrong last night. They do leave me
out. The blissful reunion phase is
a little exclusionary.Ó
She
nodded.
ÒYou
left me out, too, when you were part of that. I understand discretion but why does
everyone have to disappear into the person theyÕre with?Ó
ÒOh,
like you and Tonya didnÕt do that?
Give me a break, Len. You
hardly heard a word I said to you back then.Ó
ÒDid
you care?Ó
ÒOn
a professional level, yeah. Your
right hand was more like your left foot.Ó
He
smiled. ÒGood one.Ó Then his smile died. ÒOkay, I guess IÕm just cranky.Ó
ÒItÕs
morning, ergo...Ó
ÒAm
I not a morning person? IÕm fine in
the morning.Ó
ÒUh
huh.Ó She went back to eating,
enjoying the greasy, salty, wonderful badness of her meal. ÒWhat panel you going to first?Ó
ÒIÕm
not. Going to the trauma center
here. Supposed to be first rate and
I know the head of it. You want to
come?Ó
ÒYes,
I want to come.Ó The trauma center
was one of the best in the sector.
They were doing work that no one else did. ÒI want to see the Barqolin
procedure. ItÕs saved a lot of
lives, but it doesnÕt translate well on vid.Ó
ÒI
know. IÕve tried to follow it,
too. Well, maybe they can walk us
through one of the vids if they donÕt have any procedures scheduled.Ó
She
smiled happily. Learn something new
and not have to sit in hard, too-close-together chairs to do it? Win, win.
##
Chapel
was exhausted when they got back from the trauma center. TheyÕd not only seen a procedure, theyÕd
been allowed to assist with a second.
She was relatively sure if the need arose, she could perform one on her
own.
ÒOur
esteemed keynote speaker tonight,Ó Len muttered as they passed someone with ÒDoctor
Michel DandridgeÓ on his nametag.
ÒI canÕt stand the guy. IÕm
going to skip the big banquet.Ó
ÒDid
you plan to attend any of this conference?Ó
ÒI
learned enough today to justify being here, and you can say the same. There is a steakhouse IÕm dying to
try. You in or do you fancy hanging
on Dandridge the DronerÕs every monotone word?Ó
ÒWow,
did he steal your woman once or something?Ó She sighed. ÒSteak sounds so much better than
whatever is on the menu for dinner tonight.Ó
ÒI
think it was some kind of fish.Ó
She
could picture it. White, bland,
probably steamed. Tasteless if they
were lucky. Really funky tasting if
they werenÕt. ÒYou sold me. IÕm gonna
shower first, all right?Ó
ÒMe,
too. I was sweating like a pig
during that last procedure. So sure
I was going to screw something up.Ó
ÒYou?Ó She smiled. ÒMeet down here in half an hour? Or did you expect me to linger over my
toilette?Ó She laughed at the idea.
ÒIÕve
seen you in every state imaginable.
Not that I wouldnÕt like to get a taste of what Christine all gussied up
just for me looks like, but IÕm fine with low-key you. Unless you brought that green dress?Ó
ÒI
did not.Ó The green dress was
officially retired. Or maybe she
was just sentimental. Maybe some
part of her hoped sheÕd be wearing it for Jim—and just Jim—again
some day.
Stupid
romantic that she was.
ÒWell,
whatever you want to wear is fine.
This steakhouse isnÕt fancy.Ó
He headed off to the bank of elevators in the west end of the
hotel. She was in the east wing.
A
shower, some simple makeup, and a quick change to a comfortable but sleek
blouse and pants, and she was ready to go.
He smiled when he saw her, put his arm around her as they left the
hotel.
ÒItÕs
just down the street. We can walk.Ó
ÒGood.Ó She relaxed as he held her loosely, was
surprised at how comfortable it was to be close to him like this. But then theyÕd worked together for how
long? It was natural to be around
him, even if sheÕd never considered being around him quite like this.
ÒYouÕre
thinking too hard.Ó He laughed
softly. ÒWhen you get that quiet, I
know youÕre overthinking. Do I need
to ask what itÕs about?Ó
ÒProbably
not.Ó She reached up, touched his
hand where it rested on her shoulder.
ÒThis is nice.Ó
ÒWell,
of course, itÕs nice, darlinÕ. Did you expect me to be a slouch?Ó He waited a moment and when she didnÕt
answer, he said, with what she hoped was mock offense, ÒYou did. You thought I was bad at romance. Christine, I am crushed.Ó
ÒI
didnÕt think you were bad at it. I
just didnÕt think you and I would be any good.Ó
ÒDid
you ever give it real consideration?Ó
ÒNo. But then neither did you, Len. You said so last night.Ó
ÒI
did say that. So letÕs just enjoy
this unexpected gift, huh?Ó He
leaned in and kissed her cheek. ÒI
could have picked the blonde who appeared to think about very little other than
getting laid, but no. I had to set
my cap on you.Ó
She
chuckled. ÒStupid man.Ó
ÒDonÕt
I know it?Ó He turned her into a
restaurant, done in rich burgundies and dark leather. They had to wait for a table in the bar,
but she didnÕt think either of them found that a hardship as they sat and
caught up over red wine for her and bourbon for him.
The
dinner, once they were seated, was great.
The server solicitous but not hovering, and Chapel leaned back when they
were done with their entrees and let Len order whatever he wanted for dessert.
ÒOh,
sure, you say you donÕt want anything, but I know you. YouÕll be asking for two forks.Ó
ÒOr
spoons, if you go for ice cream.Ó
ÒOr
chocolate mousse. That looks
good.Ó He handed over the dessert
menu. ÒTell me what doesnÕt look
good to you.Ó
ÒBread
pudding.Ó She made a face that got
him laughing. ÒWhat? I hate the stuff. ItÕs soggy bread. By design.Ó
ÒYes. Yes it is. IÕm not a fan, either.Ó He smiled at the server as he came
over. ÒWeÕll share a chocolate
mousse.Ó
It
was light and heavenly, and he let her have the last bit. As they left the restaurant, she
expected him to try to get her to his room, but instead he took her hand and
led her down along the main street, and they looked in windows and talked about
whatever came to mind.
ÒSo
which one of them was it?Ó he asked very softly as they walked back to the
hotel.
ÒJim.Ó
ÒYeah. ThatÕs what I thought.Ó He shook his head. ÒNot sure IÕm up to competing with him. Spock, I could probably manage.Ó
ÒItÕs
not a competition.Ó But she didnÕt
meet his eyes and she knew he didnÕt miss that fact.
ÒDo
you miss him?Ó
ÒYes. But I expect I always will. HeÕll be that person you want but canÕt
really have.Ó She shook her head
and laughed a little too bitterly.
ÒSpock knew exactly what he was doing.Ó
ÒSo,
itÕs SpockÕs fault you were in bed with both of them?Ó
She
shrugged. ÒItÕs no oneÕs
fault. But itÕs annoying how well
he played it.Ó
ÒSo,
you didnÕt like being with him?Ó
ÒWith
Spock? Oh, no, it was good. ItÕs just...I fell for Jim on Earth,
when Spock was at Gol and you were in Georgia. And it was not my smartest moment
thinking two would be more fun than one.Ó
He
laughed, but not in a mean way, and squeezed her hand. ÒLook, I came on really strong last
night. I probably shouldnÕt have.Ó
ÒYouÕd
had a lot to drink. Liquid
courage.Ó She smiled gently. ÒSo, I guess that means youÕre trying to
find a way to back out gracefully?Ó
ÒBack
out? Oh, hell, no. IÕm trying to give you a way to wriggle
off the hook.Ó
ÒSo
you want to do it?Ó She sounded
very tentative—she hated how uncertain.
ÒYes. Yes, I do.Ó He stopped her at the entrance to the
hotel, pulled her close, and kissed her.
It
was a very, very good kiss.
Then
he eased away. ÒIÕm not sure you
want to though, Christine, so letÕs call it a night. Thank you for making this a wonderful
day.Ó He touched her cheek for a
moment, then turned and walked away.
She
watched him go, some part of her saying to stop him.
Another
part said to let him go. Was that
the smart part or the scared part?
She
hurried after him, stopped him at the elevators. ÒWhat do you want? Just a night or love?Ó
ÒIÕm
not sure.Ó
She
frowned.
ÒAnd
thatÕs why IÕm going up to my room alone, Christine. YouÕre in love already. ItÕs going to stick in my craw that IÕll
never be the one for you.Ó
She
nodded and let him go. ÒIt was a
hell of a kiss.Ó
ÒYes. Yes it was.Ó He pushed the up button and got into the
elevator, the doors very final as they closed him off from her.
She
went back to her room alone.
##
As
soon as she got to her room, she commed him on the
inter-hotel system. He picked up on
the first buzz.
ÒDo
you really think thereÕs just one for someone?Ó She sat down on the bed and kicked off
her shoes.
ÒNo. But I think a person has to be ready to
move on.Ó
ÒWhat
gets them to that point, though?
Waiting forever, or getting—Ó
ÒIf
you say getting back on the horse, IÕll hang up on you, Christine.Ó He was laughing.
She
lay back, cradling the receiver against her ear and the pillow. ÒYouÕre my friend, Len.Ó
ÒYes,
I am.Ó
ÒHow
much more do you want to be?Ó
ÒWell,
right now, IÕd like to be in your bed.
But I know myself, darlinÕ. IÕm a foolish old romantic and IÕll go
and fall in love with you, I just know it.Ó
ÒLike
you did with Tonya. And Natira. And
Nancy. And your ex wife. And...Ó
ÒYour
point?Ó
ÒIs
that youÕre an all-or-nothing kind of guy.
But you get over it. Sure,
youÕre all in when youÕre involved, but you can move on. YouÕve proven it.Ó
ÒI
ask again: your point?Ó
ÒI
guess that I canÕt hurt you too badly.Ó
She sighed. ÒAnd that IÕm
lonely and I want you to come to my room.Ó
ÒI
like the last part. The other part...well,
I think you underestimate your ability to wound, honÕ.Ó
ÒMaybe
so. I guess I shouldnÕt judge by
the fact that Jim and Spock didnÕt miss a beat.Ó
ÒI
think they missed you when you left.
DonÕt sell yourself short.Ó
He sighed, then asked, ÒWhat room are you in?Ó
ÒFour
eighteen. IÕm in the east wing.Ó
ÒIÕm
coming over. With booze. I donÕt know that weÕre going to sleep
together, though.Ó
ÒIf
all you want to do is drink and talk, we can do it over this comm channel.
DonÕt come over unless you intend for something to happen.Ó
There
was a long silence. Then he said,
ÒFine, IÕm coming over.Ó
She
cut the comm link and swallowed hard.
He
was coming over. She was going to
sleep with her friend.
Was
she fucking nuts? How many things
did she need to screw up in her life before she wised up?
She
had herself pretty worked up by the time he buzzed at her door. She let him in and started to pace.
He
ignored her and poured them both bourbons.
ÒHere.
Drink up. Jesus, Christine,
you set the terms—why are you acting like a blushing virgin?Ó
ÒIs
this a dumb idea?Ó She took a
frantic sip of the drink. ÒBecause
my track record isnÕt the best.Ó
ÒYeah,
and me settling down with someone I just met and having an implant put in me
was my finest moment?Ó
She started to laugh. ÒBut still, ÔRoger
was an androidÕ trumps everything.Ó
ÒOh,
sure, fall back on that old play.Ó
He moved closer, stroked her hair back. ÒDo you want to do this?Ó
ÒYes?Ó
He
laughed and moved away, going to the other side of the bed, plumping the
pillows up, kicking his shoes off, and leaning back. He crossed his feet and sipped his drink
while he watched her.
ÒCome
sit here with me. Christ on a
stick, Chapel.Ó
She
handed him her drink, then cuddled in next to him.
He
gave her back the glass and put his arm around her. ÒThere. Panic attack averted. This is doing great stuff for my ego,
let me tell you.Ó
She
laughed. ÒIÕm sorry. IÕm a mess.Ó
ÒYou
are. No argument there. BlondieÕs looking better and
better.Ó He tightened his hold on
her as he said the last bit, as if to let her know he was kidding.
She
leaned over him and put her glass on the nightstand, then snaked her arm around
him and put her head on his chest.
ÒI just ran, you know? From
the two of them. And things have
been hectic on the Shalimar, and I am
busier than shit, and I didnÕt have to think about anything or anyone but doing
my job.Ó
ÒYep. You didnÕt deal with what happened: you
buried it.Ó
She
pushed her cheek into the soft fabric of his shirt. ÒRight.Ó
ÒAnd
now youÕre having to deal with it.
And here I am. Good olÕ Len.Ó He
put his now empty glass down and sighed.
ÒI
donÕt think of you that way. Like
some sort of standby or stand in.Ó
She sat up and kissed him the way heÕd kissed her earlier.
He
pushed her over and followed her down, deepening the kiss, running his hand
down her side. Then he shook his
head and let her go. ÒIÕm probably
going to kick myself in the morning, but I donÕt think this is the right thing
to do.Ó He eased away and got off
the bed. ÒBreakfast? Same time, same place?Ó
She
nodded, and watched him walk out without calling him back.
##
After
a breakfast that both of them tried too hard to be normal at, she left him to
go to a session that actually looked interesting, then ditched the rest of the conference
and walked down to a dress shop theyÕd passed the night before during their
stroll.
There
was a dress hanging on the wall that had caught her eye. Red and cut in a daring way. She looked at the size and realized it
would never fit her.
ÒI
have that in your size only in dark blue,Ó the woman working in the shop
said. ÒLet me get it for you.Ó
Chapel
took it from her and went into the dressing room. If anything, this was sexier than the
green dress. She smiled and when
the clerk asked, ÒHow does it fit?Ó she told her sheÕd take it.
ÒAnd
I need some shoes that are as sexy as this dress.Ó
The
clerk had just the thing.
Chapel
walked back to the hotel and went up to her room, spending a lot of time on her
make-up—trying primarily to look like she didnÕt have any on—and on
her hair, before slipping on the dress and shoes.
Perfect.
She
walked down to the lobby, noticed more than a few heads turning as she went
by. Len was sitting at the bar with
several other people, including the blonde. He didnÕt have his arm around her though,
so Chapel walked over.
He
took in the dress and said, ÒWow.Ó
ÒCan
I borrow him?Ó
The
blonde didnÕt look thrilled, but the others waved them off with a smile.
ÒI
can see why you left the green dress at home.Ó
ÒI
just bought this today.Ó She smiled
at him. Waited to see if heÕd get
the significance of that statement.
ÒFor
me?Ó No flies on him. ÒAww, IÕm
touched.Ó
ÒI
canÕt promise anything, Len. I
canÕt even promise that IÕm not doing this to finally move on. But I saw this and thought of you. Only you. Is that enough?Ó
He
smiled. ÒYep.Ó Taking her hand he led her to the east
wing elevators. ÒAnd IÕm going to
enjoy taking that dress off you.
One promise only, all right?Ó
She
waited.
ÒYou
donÕt wear this dress for anyone else.Ó
ÒDeal.Ó She dragged him onto the elevator and
they rode up with several others, holding hands in the back of the car,
grinning at each other like two teenagers about to do it for the first time.
They
were the only ones getting off at four, and they maintained decorum until the elevator
doors shut, and then he had her pushed up against the hallway wall and was
kissing her.
ÒRoom,Ó
she said. ÒNow.Ó
He
grabbed her hand and pulled her down to her room, and she was laughing as they
nearly ran, as he pushed her palm up to the door to let them in, and stood
behind her, pushing on her in other ways.
The
door unlocked and they were inside, and he had her against the wall again, was
kissing her fiercely. Then he
pushed her into the bathroom, pulled her panties off, and urged her onto the
counter. She unfastened his pants,
and he lifted her legs so she could wrap them around him, and...there.
Oh,
God, there. She sighed as he moved,
happy to be feeling this again, happy to feel connected to someone again.
It
had been too long. Why the hell had
she waited?
ÒIÕll
take my dress off you later, I guess,Ó he said with a laugh as he held her
tightly and thrust, moving his hand down to lift the skirt and play.
She
cried out as she came. He kept
moving, a big grin on his face, until the grin turned into a grimace and he
collapsed against her.
She
held him and kissed his neck. ÒSo I
guess you like the dress, huh?Ó
He
laughed and nodded, then eased away and met her eyes, taking hold of her face
with both of his hands before kissing her, gently this time. ÒNow, letÕs get it off you.Ó
##
Chapel
closed her eyes as she lay cuddled against Len. ÒWhy in GodÕs name didnÕt we ever think
to do this before?Ó
ÒCould
have saved us both a world of trouble.Ó
He ran his hand lazily up and down her arm, making her shiver. ÒHonestly, I think we didnÕt think of it
because it wasnÕt time to think of it.Ó
ÒAnd
now it is?Ó She moved so she could
see his face. ÒYou donÕt think we
would have worked back then, on the first voyage?Ó
ÒAll
you could see was Spock. I donÕt
think I was ever in danger of being a player in that game.Ó He kissed her softly. ÒAnd on the second time around, there
was Jim. And Spock. Double whammy. Now I have you all to myself.Ó He smiled. ÒDonÕt worry, I donÕt think thereÕs an
us. IÕm under no illusions here.Ó
ÒIs
that your way of saying you donÕt want there to be an us?Ó
ÒDonÕt,
Christine. I know youÕre not ready,
and I accept that. But donÕt ask me
to say I am. ThatÕs just mean.Ó
She sighed. ÒThatÕs what I was,
though, at the end, before I left.
Mean.Ó
ÒI
remember.Ó He pulled her
closer. ÒSo cut it out. YouÕre not in that situation anymore,
and I have to catch a shuttle at oh six hundred.Ó
ÒReally? Shit.Ó She pulled him down, kissed him
gently. ÒI do love you, Len.Ó
ÒI
know you do, darlinÕ.Ó He pushed her to her back, began to kiss
his way from her lips to her collarbone to points much farther south.
She
writhed under his mouth, cried out loudly as she came. ÒYouÕre super good at that, just so you
know.Ó
ÒYes,
IÕve insured this tongue.Ó He
laughed when she did, kissed her playfully and then moaned as she returned the
favor and conducted a tour of his erogenous zones, ending with one in
particular. ÒHoly shit, woman. You better have that mouth insured.Ó
She
giggled, such a silly, carefree sound it made her smile wider. ÒYouÕre good for me.Ó
ÒKiss
of death, in my experience.Ó He
sighed. ÒI could miss my
shuttle. Tell Jim you hijacked me.Ó
She
tensed in his arms.
ÒOh,
shit, Christine, I wasnÕt thinking when I said that. IÕm sorry.Ó He sighed. ÒI really am sorry. I joke. You know that. I just didnÕt think before I opened my
mouth.Ó
She
nodded and tried to relax.
ÒHeÕll
always be there, wonÕt he? Standing
right between us.Ó
ÒHe
shouldnÕt be. He chose Spock. IÕve accepted that, but hope rears its
ugly head, Len, because youÕre not the only stupid romantic in this room.Ó
He
began to scratch her back gently, and she closed her eyes and sighed in
happiness. Just being close to
someone again felt so good. And she
knew him. She liked him and loved
him.
Would
it be so hard to fall in love?
Would
it be so hard to imagine blue eyes instead of hazel ones?
ÒYouÕre
tensing, not relaxing. Whatever
youÕre thinking about, cut it out.Ó
He got up and straddled her back, giving her a real massage. ÒDonÕt worry about this, Christine. It is what it is. Maybe weÕll do it again someday, maybe
we wonÕt.Ó
ÒYouÕre
a wise man.Ó
ÒOr
IÕm just saying the right thing because youÕre my friend and IÕll cry in my
beer later.Ó
ÒIÕm
sorry.Ó
ÒDonÕt
be sorry, darlinÕ. WeÕre here. WeÕre naked. And parts of me are ecstatic.Ó
She
smiled. ÒParts of me are, too.Ó
She
remembered what it felt like when all of her was, though. That was the problem.
Even
if Jim had never been really hers.
SheÕd gotten a taste.
Len
continued to make her muscles feel like jelly, and she closed her eyes and just
drifted. This was nice. This was uncomplicated.
She
liked it a lot.
That
counted for something. Right?
FIN