DISCLAIMER: The Star Trek characters are the property of Paramount Studios, Inc and Viacom. The story contents are the creation and property of Djinn and are copyright (c) 2002 by Djinn. This story is Rated PG.
Chance Encounter
by Djinn
From her seat at the bar,
Deanna Troi kept a watchful eye on the door of the lounge while trying to
appear as if she were completely absorbed in enjoying her hot chocolate. She noticed the doors opening across the corridor,
saw the conference delegates begin filing past, a few leaving their colleagues
to duck into the lounge for a quick break, a chance to talk in more privacy or
just enjoy a raktajino or coffee in peace.
She saw Picard and Will as
they walked past, both absorbed in whatever the Vulcan Ambassador was
saying. They didn't see her. Not that she was doing anything wrong, she
told herself as she took another sip of the rich beverage. So what if she didn't have any business that
required her to be in this section of Starfleet Command? So she was looking for one person in
particular...that wasn't wrong. She
smiled. She was getting as skilled as
her mother at denial.
"Get us some raktajinos,
Worf. I think that last speaker could
bore the horn off a targ."
Chancellor Martok pushed past the bar and her, heading for a bank of
replicators. "Why did I let you
talk me into coming to this outreach conference?"
Worf turned to the replicator
by the bar, ignoring all but his task.
She studied him as he ordered the drinks. He seemed wilder now, less civilized, less
Starfleet. More Klingon. She looked away so that she could look up
again as he turned, this time to say in wonder, "Worf?"
His eyes widened. "Deanna."
"It's been a long
time."
He nodded, the two cups he
held in front of him forgotten as he looked at her.
"Whoever this is, she
better be interesting enough to keep your Chancellor waiting," Martok
said, his voice laced with amusement.
She turned to look at him,
held out her hand. "Commander
Deanna Troi. Ambassador Worf and I were
shipmates on the
Martok took her hand. She braced herself, but his grip was not
crushing, was surprisingly light.
"I believe he may have mentioned you a time or two." He looked at Worf, who still seemed at loss
for words. Taking one of the raktajinos,
Martok smiled at her. "I'll give
you some time to catch up. Worf, I'll
see you back in the conference."
Worf nodded.
She smiled, as Martok strode
confidently into the crowd in the corridor.
"He indulges you."
"I am from his
house. And I did make him
Chancellor."
She laughed. "So that story is true? You really were Chancellor of the Klingon
Empire?"
"For a very short time,
yes." He stood stiffly.
"Worf, sit down. I won't bite." She blushed then, remembering a time when he
bit her.
He smiled, obviously
remembering it too. "Hopefully, you
can say the same for me."
"A joke? My, you have come a long way. Deep Space Nine must have agreed with
you?" His smile faded and she felt
hers die also. It hadn't been his time
on the station that had taught him to tease; it had been Jadzia Dax. "I'm sorry, Worf. I wasn't thinking."
He looked down. "It has been nearly two years. I cannot let every mention of her upset
me."
"It's a testament to how
much you loved her that it does."
Deanna studied him, read the swirling emotions she felt coming off of
him. "I never got a chance to tell
you how sorry I was."
He nodded.
"It was a senseless
death."
He stiffened. "She is in Sto-Vo-Kor."
"I didn't
mean..." Deanna stared down at her
chocolate. "I'm sure she died
bravely." She looked over at him. He too was staring down into his drink. Reaching over to touch his hand lightly, she
said, "But too soon. Too
young."
The rush of sadness, of
loneliness that she felt as she touched him nearly sent her reeling. So sad.
How could one person be so profoundly sad?
"I heard that the Dax
symbiont didn't die?" she ventured cautiously, as she let go of his hand.
"It lives on."
"On the station, I
think?"
He nodded. Then, before she could ask anything else, he
said with forced cheerfulness, "You would be proud of Alexander,
Deanna. He is on the Ya'Vang, serving as
weapons officer."
"Yes, I know." At his look of surprise, she laughed. "Alexander and I became quite good
friends, you know. He's kept in touch
with me. Lets me know how he's doing
from time to time."
"I did not know."
"Why should
you?" She smiled softly. "You are proud of him then?"
"He does not dishonor
our house."
She shook her head. Nothing had changed. "Wouldn't it be easier to just say,
'yes'?"
He looked down. "Apparently not for me. Jadzia used to..." He trailed off and the silence between them
was oppressive.
Deanna turned in her
stool. "You _can_ talk about her,
Worf. It might be better if you
did."
"Better?" He looked at her suspiciously. "Better than what?"
"Better for
you." She sighed. "You don't talk about her, do you?"
"I honor her
memory."
"In silence?" She held up a hand as he turned to her with
an argument. "I withdraw the
question."
"I am not like you. It is not my way to"--he searched for
the word--"emote about her."
He gulped down his raktajino, busied himself with ordering a new one. He glanced over at her cup. "Hot chocolate," he said with a
grimace. "Do you want
another?"
"Yes, please."
"You still have a sweet
tooth."
"I will go to my grave
with one."
He shot a look at her.
"Worf, it's a figure of
speech. You can't take every comment so
personally."
He seemed to relax. "Martok tells me the same thing."
"The Chancellor is a
wise man." She took the mug from him, set it down and stirred it
gently. She could tell that Worf was staring at her. After a few
seconds, she looked up at him. "What?"
"You are well? I have not even asked."
She smiled gently. "I am fine."
"You are still with
Riker?"
She nodded.
"He treats you
well?" He scowled, as if willing to
do something about it if she said that Will didn't.
"He and I are
fine."
Worf nodded. "I was at his table for lunch
yesterday. He seemed...uncomfortable
around me."
She raised an eyebrow.
"I think I remind him of
a time when he almost lost you. It is
not easy to have to face that."
"No," she
agreed. "It's not." She waited for him to take a sip of his drink
and put the mug down before she said, "It couldn't have been easy seeing
the new Dax on the station?"
He didn't look at her. "It was not."
"Is she very like
Jadzia?"
He shook his head. "She is her own person." Then he frowned. "Except there are all the memories of
the previous hosts, including Jadzia, inside her. It can be very confusing." He looked at Deanna. "She is a counselor too."
"Not a warrior like
Jadzia?"
"Jadzia was not a
warrior."
"She was more of one
than I ever was." Deanna grinned as
she remembered all the times Worf had tried to teach her to fight.
"You did all right. For a Betazoid." He smiled, then the expression faded.
She could read some new
emotions coming from him. "I never
regretted it. Our time
together." When he looked over at
her, she leaned in and kissed him gently on the cheek. "I treasure it, in fact."
He lifted his hand, stroked
her face gently. Then he turned back to
his drink. "I too never regretted
it."
Deanna smiled. "No, you just forgot it once you met
Jadzia." At his look she raised her
hand. "That's how it should be,
Worf. That's what love is. What it does.
It makes us forget everyone else that came before." She considered that. "Well not forget. But they fade a bit to the background, and
only the one we truly love is there for us."
He nodded.
"She's still there,
isn't she, Worf?"
He didn't bother to argue,
just nodded. "I don't want to let
her go. I can't."
Deanna turned back to her
chocolate. "When it's time, you
will."
"Will I?" He was looking at her, eyes almost
beseeching. "Do I dishonor her by
not allowing her to rest?"
She smiled gently. "No, Worf. There is no dishonor."
He looked down. "She would not be angry with
me?" His voice sounded very
tentative.
"Not if she loves you,
Worf. She'd only want you to do what's
right for you...in your own time."
"She would tell me to
move on. To find another to love."
"Would she?"
"I told Ezri
that." He saw Deanna's look and
explained, "Dax's new host. I...we
are friends now. I did not stand in her
way when she fell in love."
Deanna grinned. "From the sound of your voice, you
didn't approve exactly either."
Worf glared at her. "He is childish...not the man I would
have chosen for her." His look
softened. "Yet he appears to make
her happy."
She smiled in
understanding. "Sometimes that's
all that matters."
He stared at her, his look
becoming even gentler, more familiar.
"We were happy once?"
She nodded. "We were." She took the hand he held out to her.
"You are happy with
him?"
"I am." She felt him squeeze her hand, then he let
go.
"Then I am happy for
you." He drank the rest of his
raktajino. "I must go. Martok will be waiting."
She slid off her stool and
pulled him into a quick embrace.
"Take care of yourself, Worf."
His arms tightened around
her, and for a moment he buried his face in her hair. Then he pulled away, his voice all business,
his bearing proper. "It was good
seeing you, Commander."
"Goodbye,
Ambassador." She straightened,
nodded formally. Then ruined it all by
grinning.
For a moment, she thought she
saw a twinkle in his eye, a tiny lessening of the sadness she felt coming from
him. They stood staring at each
other, then with a slight curl of his lips, he turned and left the room.
She watched the door for a
long moment before sitting back down to finish her chocolate.
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Deanna was tired by the time
she got back to her temporary quarters.
She took a quick shower before sitting down to read her messages. There were several from her mother, long and
full of gossip as usual. She was almost
through the last one when her door chimed.
She called out absently, "Come."
"Am I interrupting?"
Will's arms snaked around her, as he leaned over the back of her chair and
nuzzled her neck.
She smiled. "A very important letter."
He read over her
shoulder. "Trixen did that? I'd have done more than just grounded
him."
Deanna laughed. "Well, for once, you and mother
agree." She felt her smile fade,
said in a more serious tone, "But I don't want to talk about my
cousin."
He let go of her, walked over
to the couch and sat down. "What do
you want to talk about?"
She turned in her chair,
looked over at him. "I saw Worf
today."
He took that in. "How is Worf?"
"He thrives
professionally. It's clear that
Chancellor Martok is quite fond of him."
"Like a father."
Deanna nodded. "That's what I thought too."
"And emotionally? Does Worf thrive emotionally?"
She got up and walked over to
the couch, curling in beside him.
"No." As he pulled her closer, she turned to look at
him. "You were right. He is very sad."
He nodded. "Yesterday at lunch. I just felt as if he was floundering. Not that he wasn't in charge of himself. It was more..."
"What was going on
inside him." She nodded. "Maybe you should be the
counselor."
He shook his head. "I wouldn't be any good at it. Could barely talk to him at lunch. I kept trying to think of what I would want
people to say to me, if I'd lost you.
And since I couldn't come up with any anything that didn't seem trite, I
settled for saying nothing." He
smiled softly. "But I knew enough
to send you."
She smiled. "Yes, you did."
"Did you help him?"
"A little." She leaned back in his arms. "Most of it is just going to take
time. He loved her profoundly. He won't get over it quickly. But he'll be all right." She sighed.
"That's as much as I'll be able to do for him, short of..." She trailed off in embarrassment.
"Short of
what?" By his voice, it was clear
he knew exactly what she meant. And that
he wasn't having any of it.
She smiled. He was still jealous of Worf after all these
years. She remembered Worf's expression
and thought that the sentiment might cut both ways.
He leaned down and kissed her
cheek. "I'm afraid if it's a choice
of making Ambassador Worf feel better or keeping you with me, that Worf is on
his own."
"I had a feeling you'd
say that." She looked up at him,
remembered how concerned he'd been when he told her of running into Worf, how
worried he'd been. "You're a good
man, Will Riker."
As he leaned in to kiss her,
he said, "Don't spread it around."
"I won't. Especially not to Worf." She grinned, as she watched Will blanch at the
thought of Worf learning that he'd meddled in the Klingon's affairs.
Then Will smiled at her again
but his eyes looked very sad.
"What is it?"
"Just thinking what it
would be like...to lose you." He
studied her face, touched her cheek lightly.
"To not be able to wake up beside you ever again."
She could feel the sadness
rolling off him at the thought; it felt much as Worf's had. She felt tears threaten as, in a moment of
sheer indulgence, she let his emotion overwhelm her. He loved her so much. It was important to be reminded of that, too
easy to lose sight of it in the face of everyday life. Blinking hard, she touched his face and said,
"I'm right here."
He nodded, pulling her to
him. "And that's where you're
staying." He kissed her. As he lost himself in her, she heard him
whisper, "Forever."
She thought of Worf. Felt a moment's sadness overpower her, even
as she responded to Will's kisses.
Forever.
Forever didn't always last
very long.
FIN